這是Sunette回覆給一位存有的信件，內容提到人類的心智系統是如何的運作以及運用寫作、自我寬恕和呼吸來協助/支援自己來停止心智系統的能量。還有提到為何要使用寬恕以及寬恕的原理，解釋得非常詳細、非常清楚。信件內容如下:
你人生所經歴的所有人類一樣心智系統(mind)的運作是一樣的. 你比大部份人類体驗到心智的幅度更加(極度)的強烈, 然而世界上有很多人仍然/曾經有(和你同樣)程度或類似的体驗.
讓我們開始看一看這幾點:
*** 在我20歲時跟隨著父母親參加了佛教，也跟隨著出家師父舉辦過兒童夏令營。那是一段開心的日子。後來跟著另一個老師學習佛法。一開始起了一個對老師不恭敬的念頭，心中開始悔恨交加。然後胸口常有一股能量，自己一直控制不住的能量，常覺得自己像一台印表機，主機在別的地方，別人輸入甚麼在我的腦海中就出現甚麼。我一直無法掌控自己。
對這個 "大師"的不敬, 指責 和怨恨思想來自你自已的心智系統, 並且稱為 "暗聊back chat)". 這種暗聊有時來自心智系統裏自動出現, 也有源自我們的性格. 所以, 如果一個人對另一個人(在裏面)有這些不敬, 指責和怨恨的暗聊 它事實在給我們揭露自已沒有留意重點. 透過你對這 "大師"的不敬, 指責和怨恨顯示你對自已不敬, 指責和怨恨自已, 然而你把它往外投射在這大師身上. 我們的外世界和遇到的人其實是我們自已的本質寫照. 意思是, 你(針)對任何/另一個人的感受/体驗, 事實上在給你揭露/顯示你自已裏面(一直抑壓/無視)怎樣体驗着自已, 怎樣對待自已 - 這些給你揭露你怎對待自已(與自已的關係). 所有人類都看不出這點: 這 - 一切我們在自已裏面所感受/所想的事實上全都 "源自我們自已". 所有我們對某人/其他人/某物某事的感受/所想 - 事實上就是我們對自已(作出)的感受/所想.
(我遲些在文章後面會教你怎樣 - 從你對其他人的感受/想法, 怎樣看出實際上它在告訢給你看你在怎樣對待/感受你自已的.)
我們思想的想念/想法, 這些稱為暗聊的對話(暗聊一些被處理過的想法, 以一種在我們自已心智系統裏形成真實對話形式的思想, 所以 - 所有在我們自已心智系統世界裏的談話, 都是我們從/透過自已的想念/想法製造出來的) - 所以, 這些想念/想法/暗聊(能夠)在我們身体裏(抽取)產生能量, 就是你過往在胸口所体驗的. 所以 - 這些你感受到的能量源自你在你心智系統裏面(對自已)的想念/想法.
*** 我一直認為我的老師神通廣大，應該可以解決我的問題，但是並沒有。我跟他說我的問題，他只是低頭不語，甚麼話也沒有說。我去找他好幾次，他問我有什麼問題？我說我心很不安。他學著中國禪宗五祖大師對六祖慧能說：「心不安？你把心拿來，我幫你安。」
這點正是所有人類 "都會迷失"的 - 當我們嘗試往 "外面", 向其他人求救, 當解決辨法永遠都在我們自已裏面. 人類錯在: 是我們製造我們自已的心智系統, 我們自已的想念/想法和我們的能量亦因為這點: 事實上, 沒有人任何人知道我們自已的心智系統是怎樣運作的, 因為在你裏面就只有 "你自已"一個在心智裏面! 沒有任何人, 不管是正常人或甚至一個大師能夠幫你應付你的心智系統, 因為他們不是住在你的心智裏面的 - 只有你自已是. 所以 - 只有你自已才能救助自已, 透過了解你作為一個心智系統是怎樣運作的, 並且在你自已裏面站起來指揮你的心智系統/想念/想法/能量, 你不再被這些控制着. 每一個人永遠都往自已外面尋找解決辨法/栛助/答案, 從來沒有往 - 因為 "真正"的栛助/解決辨法不是往外面找的, 不在 "外面", 而是在自已裏面, 是你自已. 所以 - 我會往後教你自我-宽恕和寫作, 都是一些會栛助你在/處於你心智系統, 想念/想法和能量裏面時指揮自已, 不再令自已受它們的控制, 而是你站起來決定要改變自已(的地方). 沒有任何人可以替你制止你的心智系統, 想念/想法和能量 - 只有我們自已才能夠為自已做到, 因為這些心智系統, 思想/想法和能量都是自已, 是我們親手製造出來的, 我們要為此負上自我責任.
*** 我開始懷疑我心中的負面能量是否跟他有關，因為他有神通，他知道我對他的不滿，我對他的不恭敬。所以他討厭我，只要他一個念頭我就會不舒服.
這是另一個, 我們在心智系統裏面的範例 - 我們投映在別人身上, 但事實上這些是我們在自已裏面体驗着自已而不關其他人事的. 心智系統是一個有趣的系統, 它能夠一直說服你進入相信, 例如這些 "負能量" 是源自別人發出的; 然而事實上我們自已在自已裏面, 透過自已的思想, 產生這些能量的. 透過這些在我們腦裏面不斷想/與自已的對話, 的想念生產出來.
所以, 在這裏 - 這些你對這大師的 "負能量", 實際上是你在自已裏面對自已所体驗(感受)到的負能量, 是你透過你在心智系統裏面的思想/自我交談自已製造出來的. 心智系統在我們裏面可以同時製造正能量和負能量的, 這此都是透過我們思想/想念的性質製造出來的. 所以 - 如果你接受和容許你裏面有負面的想念/想法, 你就會造出負能量, 如果你接受和容許正面的想念, 你就會造出正能量. 所有這些正和負面的想念/想法與能量同時源自我們的心智系統並且把我們從物質性身体分開了 - 不再每一刻都處於(活在)是這裏(Here)在真實世界中. 所以, 心智系統 - 當我們讓思想和能量牽着鼻子走; 把我們從本來是與身体一体在是 "這裏/當下"(here)的, 而因此導至我們極容易陷入自已的心智系統裏面, 因為它是一個極混亂和容易迷失的地方 - 就如你過往已經所体驗過的一樣. 所以 - 運用自我寬恕和自我寫作, 這些我在後面都會逐一解釋它們的運作原理; 你能夠幫助/引領自已走出已陷入了自已在心智系統裏面的迷失狀態, 並且變回在身体裏面穩定下來, 把自已帶回現實(環境)中. 並透過這樣終止你裏面的的混亂和迷失狀態回復是 "這裏". 對你會是一個進程; 但一如你過往所体驗過的一樣 - 沒有任何人可以幫到你的; 這問題不會有 "輕鬆快捷的解決方法"; 你必須要和只能夠自救; 而將會有很多人透過給你看怎樣運用這些自我宽恕和自我寫作的工具, 來栛助和支援你. 然而真正走每一步和應用這些工具, 真正不斷下功夫去 "行動/做"的 - 只有你能夠為自已栛助自已.
明白, 這些 - 你覺得這大師擁有 "超自然"力量是一道你在自已心智系統裏面製造的信念. 如果人類真的擁有超自然力量 - 這個世界早就已經變成一個徹㡳不會像今天的世界! 因此, 你跟你的師父的關係只是一道你在心智系統裏面, 透過你自已的思想/想法和你在心智系統腦裏的交談製造出來的 "信念", 因為你相信他比你 "更高超". 然而 - 沒有一個人類是比其他人 "更高超"的. 所有人類都有一個心智系統, 思想/想念和能量. 唯一令某些人更強大是我們對他們, 自已在心智系統裏產生/相信這些信念. 所以 - 當你在心智系統裏相信禪師是比你自已 "更高超", 你令自已相信 "他必定/有能力幫助你"; 而不是察覺到我們自已就是力量本身可以幫助自已. 所以 - 你必需要察覺這點: 世上沒有大師 - 不管你有多相信他們有 "多高超", 他們幫不了你的; 因為他們不是(住)在你/你的心智系統裏面: 只有你自已是, 因此只有你自已能栛助自已.
所以, 在這裏 - 重點是拋開你對大師比你 "更高超" 並且栛助和支援你自已這天生的力量, 就是你自已, 並且栛助自已指揮心智系統令它不再控制着你: 只有你能夠幫助自已完成這使命 - 世上沒有人可以替你做(就如你過往已經歴過的一樣!).還有, 這些你相信他對你不敬, 不滿意和憤恨(你) - 實際上在揭露給你看你在怎樣對待你自已. 記着, 所有我們在心裏面想的 - 永遠都從自我們自已裏面產生出來的.心智系統把我們(的投映在別人身上好讓我們不會察覺到這一切原來實際上是發自我們自已的, 然而我們永遠都把我們心裏面体驗到的, 只埋怨在對方身上因此永遠不會察覺到這事實上我們永遠都在自已在裏面感受/体驗着的是自已, 並且因為我們沒有察覺這點 - 我們沒有對自已的心智系統, 自已的思想/想念和我們自已的能量承擔責任; 沒有察覺出我們自已本身就是問題的根源.
所以 - 在這個例子中, 當你覺得這大師在對你不敬, 不滿和憤恨 - 就是一個我們的心智系統怎樣投映自已在別人身上的例子. 所以, 例如 - 這些不敬, 不滿和憤恨, 事實上是從你自已裏面洐生出來的, 並且準確的顯示給你看你在自已裏面, 怎樣体驗/對待自已. 是你事實上對你自已不敬, 是你對自已不滿和事實上是你對自已把這些投射在你的師父身上好讓你不用看出這些, 事實上是你在對你自已的感覺而感到憤恨. 因此, 我們在自已的心智系統裏面迷失了, 相信我們有的是對其他人的感受, 然而同時間一直以來 - 我們只是在感受着的是自已.
*** 然後我開始出現幻聽，出現一些學長咒罵我的聲音，本來想不要理會這個聲音。但是時間久了，也開始覺得不耐煩，忍不住要辯駁、抱怨、要回罵回去。結果就是自己在自己的腦海中不斷的編織故事。然後自己給自己回應。自己罵自己。對於自己這樣的現象，只有越來恐慌、越來越害怕。
心智系統是這樣運作的: 當我們越參與投入我們的思想/想念和能量時, 它就會變得越來越猛烈最終附強到一個思想/想念和能量能夠轉化成幻覺和更多的幻聽.
所以 - 現在是你重新取回你的自我-力量並且不再接受或容許自已把自我-力量下放給心智系統. 我會協助和支援你透過教你怎樣用寫作和自我-宽恕來, 和怎樣停止參與思想/想念和能量. 令自已不再餵養心智系統的食糧, 並且為自已取回你的自我-力量, 栛助和支援自已活在你的物質身体裏面而不是活在心智系統裏.
*** 一直打電話給老師，每次他都不耐煩的問我甚麼事？我越來越驚恐也越說不出來是怎麼回事。只會哭。然後他很不高興的說：「問你甚麼事也不講，只是哭有甚麼好哭的。」就掛電話。我以為他神通廣大，可以知道我發生了甚麼事情？但是我想我搞錯了。他應該是把我當成瘋子一樣的看待吧！
這裏你察覺到甚至 "大師"們事實上完全不知道其他人心智系統裏面發生什麼事的: 只有你最清楚. 並且, 你還需要察覺 - 沒有人可以幫助你的, 除非你自救. 例如, 我正在對你的過往經歴給你一些看法, 並且教你怎樣用寫作和自我宽恕逐步的栛助自已, 然而第一步你必須透過寫作和自我宽恕, 制止這些在你心智腦海的思想/想法, 幻聽和能量 - 你會察覺你能夠做到的, 並且世上只有你能夠做到. 所以 - 你的 "師父"幫不了你, 因為這些在你心智系統裏的思想/想念, 幻聽和能量都是製造出來的, 而因為你是你心智系統裏面的總設計師 - 只有你在自已裏面可以改變自已. 寫作和自我宽恕能夠令你/你帶領自已一步一步完成 - 利用你自已的心智系統即是思想, 幻聽和能量來栛助自已.
*** 在老師這得不到解決的辦法。我開始希望佛菩薩可以幫忙。可以讓我的念頭停下來。因為我的念頭一直無法停止，而且全是負面的念頭，讓我痛苦萬分。但是我也找不到佛菩薩。我的狀況一直持續惡化當中，出現更多的幻聽、幻覺。對佛菩薩有更多的抱怨。為何我苦苦哀求，他都不來救我，我在心中咒罵著佛菩薩。然後又覺得驚恐萬分
這裏看一看: 你對菩薩建立了與你以前的師父一樣的關係 - 往自已外面求救, 而不是察覺到只有你住在自已的心智系統裏面. 而亦因為只有你獨個一直住在裏面 - 只有你能夠協助自已. 然而, 因為人類沒有察覺在我們裏面的 "所有"這些思想, 幻聽和能量都是自已製造的, 而我們需要承擔負責的 - 我們常常往自已外面尋找答案, 希望其他人會(替我們)解決我們的問題; 然而在現實世界不可能和不是這樣運作的.
還有看一看, 長久以後, 這些思想, 聲音和能量只會變得越來越多, 越來越多而這個越來越嚴重除非你在裏面自已站起來並且不再投入它們並且改變 "你自已"!
看看 - 我們的外世界(事件)實際是反映出我們裏面同時出現着的. 這是指, 例如 - 當体驗到對菩薩怨恨和指責, 事實上是顯示給你看你實際是對自已怨恨和指責. 而這同樣應用在世界上所有的人 - 所有我們体驗到對別人的思想/想法和能量, 事實上在揭露給我們看我們這些体驗是對自已的; 然而我們的心智系統(硬)把這些(反應)投映在別人身上好讓我們永遠察覺不出我們從來不是在体驗/感受別人而是感受着 "自已"!!! 我會為你而做, 我會透過自我宽恕的例子教你怎樣栛助和支援自已 "在別人身上查看自已", 意思是怎樣為你自已, 查看你與別人相處時你對別人的思想和能量, 事實上是在揭露給你看, 這些就是你對自已的想法和能量. 所以, 你與你身外的師父還有菩薩的關係和想法和能量, 事實在揭露給你看這些是你在(心)裏面對自已的關係 - 我們外在的關係反映我們內裏跟自已的關係.
*** 覺得自己大逆不道，毀謗佛法，是要下地獄的。然後開始出現幻覺有地獄的小鬼來，要我做大魔王。我不願意。因為做大魔王是要殺人的。我並不想。但是覺得自己越來越無法掌控自己，害怕自己哪天真的失控而傷害眾生。所以趁自己神智還清醒的時候，從我家的5樓陽台上跳下去，想要結束自己的生命。結果我並沒有死…
這裏也一樣, 當你繼續餵養你的心智系統, 參與你的思想和能量時, 這些幻覺變得越來越劇烈, 令心智系統越來越強大 - 你沒有察覺到這些心智裏的思想/想念和能量事實上是不會比你更強大的, 然而你反而把力量供應給心智系統. 你膨漲/令這些思想和能量比自已更強大因為你與自已的思想/想念和能量分離了, 沒有察覺出你這些思想和能量, 也就是你的心智系統, 其實是你的一部份 你沒有察覺出他們其實是你. 亦因為你沒有察覺出這些思想和能量是你, 你容許這些思想和能量掌握你的力量和凌駕控制了你. 而如果任由心智系統任意妄為 - 它會變成像有知覺並且控制我們到一個它在我們裏面完全接管所有一切的地步, 而我們完全會失去自已和身体的自控 - 就如你過往所經歴的一樣, 你的思想和能量, 即是心智系統不斷遊說你實行了結你自已的生命. 看 - 這些心智系統, 這些思想/想念和這些能量是極度脫離現實世界到它不可能重視生命, 因為它(本身)不是生命. 心智系統是由能量造成的 - 這些思想/想念和聲音也一樣.
如果我們繼續活在心智系統裏面, 我們會越來越與自已從物質現實裏脫離進入一個能量性虛假現實, 繼而相信這個心智系統現實世界是真的, 並且完全忘記 "我們" (活)在這個 "真正的物質現實世界".
在 Desteni - 這是我們怎樣走的. 每一個人都用寫作和自我宽恕來栛助和支援自已察覺心智系統及所有這些思想/想念/想法, 暗聊和能量, 這些都是與我們分離了的一部份自已. 而我們唯一能夠清淨這些在我們裏面這團髒亂, 為這些分開了的自已即是心智系統負上責任, 並且在我們自已裏面, "尋回自我/(真正的)自已". 還有 - 自我宽恕和寫作的進程能夠協助和支援自已停止心智裏面的能量, 繼而停止在心智裏再製造幻像, 回到自已的物質身体裏並且活在一個我們抽離了的 "真實的世界". 除了寫作和自我宽恕, 我們還運用 "呼吸法". 讓你變得察覺自已與身体一起的呼吸而這樣會幫你不再脫離自已(住)在心智裏面 - 與你的身体, 與你自已回到這裏(here).
"解決辨法":
好的 - 我剛給你解釋過基本上你過往在你的心智系統裏面所面對的, 和我們怎樣在自已的心智裏製造出幻聽和幻覺. 所以 - 讓我們列出最重的幾點給你察覺:
1. 在我們心智系統裏的思想/想念, 幻聽/聲音, 能量和幻覺是與我們分開了的一部份.
3. 我們一直透過相信我們的心智比自已是更強大的 - 給心智系統, 即是這些思想, 聲音, 能量和幻覺輸送力量, 而令我們對自已改變自已變得無力.
現在讓我們看看自我宽恕的原理和怎樣用我示範的自我宽恕例子來栛助自已:
了解過什麼是自我宽恕後我們還會看看 "自我宽恕的原理".
自我宽恕是一個讓我們透過實踐(這些宽恕)來栛助和支援自已對自已的心智系統承擔責任的工具. 透過應用自我宽恕, 它會協助和支援自已去察覺你過往怎樣從你的思想, 聲音, 能量和幻覺裏分離了, 並且為察覺了後, 停止這些分離和取回你的自我-力量. 可以說, 就像所有這些思想/想念, 聲音, 能量和幻覺就像一塊塊的比薩餅而我們一直像一個比薩餅分散成所有零碎的比薩餅, 在我們裏面滿佈這些比薩餅. 自我宽恕協助和支援我們把所有這些(也是我們)的比薩餅, 把我們在自已裏面重新放回原位.
所以 - 自我宽恕同時是一個在心智系統的迷失空間裏 "尋找自已"的進程. 自我宽恕還協助和支援我們看到我們是有能力制止並在自已裏面改變自已的, 透過下定 "決心"要改變然後實踐. 自我宽恕還會協助和支援我們看到, 我們需要怎樣為自已亦是我們的心智系統負起責任, 在明白我們在自已裏面唯一可以改變自已的方法就只有透過 "我們親自實踐".
所以 - 讓我們看看自我宽恕是怎樣做的:
好的, 所以這些就是一些關於我們與自已也就是心智系統分離了的關係的自我宽恕例子, 而在這分離裏, 令我們的心智系統比我們自已更強大. 透過察覺到心智系統是我們自已的一部份 - 我們就有能力協助和支援自已停止並且改變自已改變心智.
"為什麼一定要用自我宽恕!!?"
"接受" 是說我們過往怎樣接受/默許在心智系統裏時的一切, 接受我們繼續奴役自已在心智裏, 接受在心智裏迷失成為所有這些破碎的比薩餅. 接受我們過往容許所有令我們不肯改變自已的一切事, 因為 - 因為你 "接受"自已變成所有這些碎片, 因為你這樣接受自已繼而奴役自已永遠都處於迷失中, 並且最終變成這些你接受的而且活這些你所接受 - 接受你永遠這樣迷失下去. 因此我們在自我宽恕句子裏加進 "我宽恕自已 接受!" 因為這樣會栛助和支援你停止再接受, 比如你永遠迷失下去, 並且栛助你改變這項接受成為一種察覺, 察覺出你有能力制止這些你所接受並且 "改變你自已"! 所以 - 當你不再接受自已變成 "在心智系裏迷失"時, 你跟着察覺你有能力制止這種迷失狀態並且再一次尋回自我!
而 "容許" 是我們過往怎樣容許自已一直在心智系統裏迷失下去, 一直甘於乏力. 容許, 這就像在說: "我什麼也不能做, 我改變不了自已, 我迷失/迷困了, 我乏力因此我永遠都是這樣的了". 所以 - 容許就像, 一直繼續以這些破碎/失落的比薩餅存在下去, 並且什麼也不嘗試/做去改變現況, 而繼續現在的模樣和迷失下去. 容許我們把自已的力量下放給心智系統, 透過 "容許"它並且"不去改變"它. 因此我們在自我宽恕句子裏加進 "我宽恕自已接受和容許!.." 因為這樣給我們一個機會, 停止這些 "容許" 這些每個人現時的奴役狀態並且察覺我們有能力取回 "自已的力量!" 和 "改變!"
所以 - 這些在自我宽恕裏的字句是用來栛助和支援自已停止接受的也就是奴役, 容許也就是下放自已的力量給心智系統和有這些零零碎碎自我, 把自已也就是這些比薩餅重新回歸的關鍵.
另一個在你進程中協助你的工具是: 呼吸法. 集中注意力與你的身体一起呼吸, 當心智系統暴走和這些想念, 聲音和幻覺壓倒你的時候, 吸入和呼出會幫助你, "把自已帶回現實中" 即是在物質身体裏. 你與物質身体一起呼吸會幫助你把心智系統靜下來, 讓你在自已裏面變得更穏. 所以 - 當你為自已走這個走出心智現實回到自已的進程, 幫助自已 "與身体一起呼吸!", 集中注意力在呼吸裏時. 你會發覺當你越不斷練習時, 這就會變得越來越容易停止參與在心智系統, 這些思想, 聲音和能量中.(Fred: 這我可以做證. 我已連續不停用呼吸法有三年半了, 現在已差不多不用數四下也無時無刻在輕鬆自動的做停氣呼吸.) 所以當你同時做你的自我宽恕, 和過你的日常生活 - 做日常事務時, 你可以同時專注在你的呼吸裏, 或當心智變得太劇烈或太忙碌時, 那時你只需要獨個兒坐下來一會, 深而且慢的吸呼, 吸入然後呼出直至你感到你的心智在慢慢靜來, 而且越來越靜. 而你就這樣栛助自已不再令心智系統過度活躍和壓倒你.
好的 - 我在這裏給你解釋過基本的技巧, 你過往經歴的是什麼一回事, 什麼是自我宽恕, 要怎樣運用, 為什麼會有效還有你能夠怎樣用呼吸法幫助自已. 現在是看 "你!"了. 如果你下定決心取回自已的力量和幫助自已,我們可以為你提供協助和支援, 好讓你能夠協助和支援自已. (翻譯: Fred cheung)
原文：
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What you have experienced throughout your life is how the mind of all human beings work. You have experienced your mind more extensively than most human beings, however there are many humans out there that have/have had the exact same or similar experiences.
I will within this document explain to you what happened in your mind, how it happened and why it happened. Also the solutions to assist and support yourself with.
Let’s begin with having a look at some main points:
Quote: “At the beginning I was having disrespecting thoughts against a master, I began to blame and spite him. Then I began to felt like there was a rush of energy in my chest - an energy that I cannot control. Felt like I was a printer and the main computer is somewhere else, whoever at the back input my commands and they will projected into my thoughts automatically. I couldn't control myself.”
The disrespecting, blaming and spiting thoughts towards the ‘master’ comes from your own mind and is referred to as ‘backchat’ or ‘back talk’. This ‘backchat’ comes up automatically in the mind and comes from our own personalities. So, if one have backchat of disrespect, blame and spite towards another, it reveals actually something about ourselves we haven’t looked at. With having disrespect, blame and spite towards the ‘master’ show that you have disrespect, blame and spite towards yourself, but you have projected it onto the master. Our world and the people in it is in fact mirrors of ourselves. This means that, whatever you experience towards another, actually show what you are experiencing within yourself, towards yourself –it reveals your relationship with yourself. This is what all humans miss: that – whatever we think/feel inside ourselves actually come FROM OURSELVES. Whatever we think/feel about someone/something else – is actually what we think/feel ABOUT OURSELVES.
(I will later in this document show you how to – from what you think/feel about another, see how it is in fact showing what you think/feel about yourself.)
The thoughts we think, the talking as the backchat (backchat which is thoughts arranged in such a way that it creates an actual conversation in our own mind, so – all talking that happens in our own mind, we have created ourselves from our own thoughts) – so, the thoughts/backchat generate energy in our bodies, which you experienced in your chest. So – the energy you experienced came from the thoughts/conversations of thoughts you were having in your mind.
At the moment, the mind with the thoughts and energies is ‘automated’, because we have created the mind, the thoughts and the energies in separation from us. So, the mind, the thoughts and energies are actually parts of ourselves we’ve separated ourselves from and created a ‘consciousness’ for itself, that is at the moment ‘taken over’ our ability to direct ourselves, to live. That’s why it felt like you were ‘losing control’, because at the moment our minds, our own thoughts, our own energies have taken control, because we haven’t taken responsibility for them or even realised that they are actually ourselves. Because of this separation, we have ‘forgotten’ how we have programmed our own mind, our thoughts and our energies and so created the belief that the mind, the thoughts and the energies is something that we can’t control; but we actually can stop and direct it ourselves; you just need to know how (which is what I will show you as we continue).
Quote: “I thought my master was almighty, he should be able to help me resolve this, but he didn't/couldn't. I told him my problems and he just bow his head(in his meditation) and said nothing. I met him several times. He asked me what's the matter? I said I was very anxious. He mimic Wai Lin(慧能) the Chinese Grand Five Meditation (Buddhism) master's words: anxious? You show me your "heart/thoughts/mind", let me help you find peace. Master Wai Lin
This is a point where all humans ‘become lost’ in where we try and find help ‘out there’ from others, when the solution is and always has been ourselves, within ourselves. The point that humans miss is that: we have created our own mind, our own thoughts and our energies and because of this: no-one else can really help us, but ourselves, because no-one else knows how our own mind works, because there’s no-one else inside you but YOU! No human being, not a normal human or even a master can help you with your own mind, because they are not in your mind – only you are. So – only you can help yourself, through understanding how you as the mind works and stand up inside yourself to direct your mind/thoughts/energies to not take control of you anymore. Everyone is always looking for solutions/help/answers outside of themselves, never finding help/solutions – because the REAL help/solutions is not ‘out there’, but inside self as self. So – I will later introduce you to self forgiveness and writing, which is tools which will help you to direct yourself in your mind, thoughts and energies to not have them control you anymore, but where you stand-up and make a decision to change. No-one else can stop our mind, thoughts and energies for us – only we can do it for ourselves, because the mind, thoughts and energies is ourselves, is our own creation that we have to take responsibility for.
Quote: “I began to suspect was this negative energy originate/related to him. Because he has super power(e.g. Channeling/supernatural/could know other people's past/secrets inside their mind), he knew I disrespect him, he knew I discontented with him, so he hated me. As long as he use a thought then I would feel sick.”
Here is another example of how, what goes on in our own mind – we project onto others, but it’s in fact ourselves experiencing ourselves and not another human being. The mind is interesting system, it can talk yourself into believing that, for example the ‘negative energies’ is coming from another person; but we are really creating it inside ourselves through our own thoughts/back talk/conversations in our head. So – the negative energies are not really coming from another human being, but is in fact coming from inside ourselves, through the thoughts we are thinking/conversations in our head we are having.
So, here – the ‘negative energy’ you were having towards the master, was really your own negative energy that you experienced inside yourself, that you created yourself through the thoughts/conversations you had in your mind. The mind can create positive and negative energies inside ourselves, which is create based on the nature of the thoughts we are having. So – if you accept and allow negative thoughts inside you, you will create negative energy, if you accept and allow positive thoughts inside you – you create positive energy. Both positive and negative thoughts and energies come from our mind and separate us from our human physical bodies to not be here in actual reality. So, the mind – with following our thoughts and energies; separate us from being here with our bodies, and is thus very easy to lose ourselves in our mind, because it’s a very confusing place – as you have experienced for yourself. So – with self forgiveness and writing, which I will explain later how it works; you will be able to help yourself with getting out of the lostness in the mind, and become stable in your physical body and bring yourself back to reality. And so stop the confusion and lostness and be stable here. This will be a process to walk; but as you have already experienced for yourself – no-one else can help you; there is no ‘quick fix’; you have to and can only help yourself; and there are many that will assist and support you in showing you how to use the tools of writing and self forgiveness. But the actual walking and application of the tools, the actual DOING of it – only you can do for you.
Understand, that – the thoughts you had of the master being ‘supernatural’ was a belief that you created in your own mind. If human beings were really supernatural – this world would’ve already been a completely different place! Therefore, your relationship with your master was only a ‘belief’ that you created in your mind, with your own thinking and conversations you had in your mind, because you believed that he was ‘more powerful’ than you. But – no human being is ‘more powerful’ than another. All human beings have a mind with thoughts and energies. The only thing that makes others more powerful is our own ideas/beliefs we create about them in our own minds. So – with you believing that master was ‘more powerful’ in your own mind, you made yourself believe that ‘he must / can help you’; instead of realising that you have the power of yourself to be able to help yourself. See how beliefs separate us from ourselves and each other? How we make others ‘more powerful’ instead of realising we have the power as ourselves to help ourselves. So – this is what you must realise here: that – no master/guru – no matter how ‘powerful’ you believe they are, they cannot help you; because they are not in you/your mind: only you are and so only you can help yourself.
Therefore, here – it’s to let go of the belief that a master is ‘more powerful’ and assist and support yourself to take your own power that is yourself, and help yourself to direct the mind so that it doesn’t control you anymore: only you can do this for yourself – no-one else can (as you have experienced for yourself!).
Also, the disrespect, discontent and hate that you believed he was experiencing towards you – is actually revealing that you were experiencing that towards yourself. Remember, whatever we think inside ourselves – always come from ourselves.
The mind project ourselves onto others so that we don’t realise that it’s all actually coming from ourselves, but that we always then blame others for what we experience and so never realize that it’s in fact ourselves we are experiencing. And so many human beings get lost in their mind, because everything that’s coming from us is blames onto others, never realising we’re always experiencing ourselves and because we’re not realising this – we haven’t taken responsibility for our own minds, our own thoughts and our own energies; not realising that we ourselves are the problem.
So – this example here, where you believed the master was having disrespect, discontent and hate – is an example of how our mind project ourselves onto another. So, for example – the disrespect, discontent and hate, was actually coming from inside you, from you and so actually show what you experience towards yourself, inside yourself. That you were really feeling disrespect towards yourself, that you were really feeling discontent towards yourself and that you were really feeling hate towards yourself that you have projected onto your master to not see that it is actually you that you are feeling. And so, we lose ourselves in our minds, thinking we are feeling others, but all the while – we’re only feeling ourselves.
Quote: “Then I began to have illusions/voices in my mind -- my seniors scolding me. At first I didn't pay attention to these thoughts, but later I became impatience. I couldn't suppress myself and started spite, blame, argue. So I was talking to myself, I scolded myself, I talk to myself. I was getting more and more afraid day by day.”
How the mind works is as follows: the more and more we participate in our thoughts and energies, the more and more it becomes more intense to the point where thoughts and energies can transform into illusions and more voices.
What humans don’t realise is that – all the illusions, the voices in our heads, we’re actually creating ourselves through participating in our thoughts and energies. The more we participate in our thoughts and energies, the more we are ‘feeding our minds’ and so giving our power/responsibility away to the mind and then the mind starts becoming more and more powerful than us. So – that very relationship we have with our mind as the thoughts and energies where the mind becomes more powerful than us: we create through us not stopping our thoughts and energies and making a decision to live here in the breath with our bodies. So, the more and more we participate in the thoughts and energies, the more powerful the mind becomes and the more powerless we become. So – when illusions and more voices come up in the mind one must know: I have been feeding my mind more power, instead of me stopping my thoughts and energies. Therefore realise that, even illusions are self-created from thoughts and conversations and reactions we’ve had with ourselves in our own minds.
So – it’s time to take your self-power back and no more accept or allow yourself to give your self-power away to the mind. I’m going to assist and support you in showing you how to take your self-power back by walking writing and self forgiveness and how to stop participation in the thoughts and energies to no more feed the mind power, but take responsibility for you and assist and support you to live with your physical body and no more in the mind.
Quote: “I called my master, and every time he just answer me impatiencely. I was very frighten and couldn't explain to him what was going on with me. All I could do was crying. Then he angrily said: You didn't tell me what's the matter and what is such a big deal for keep crying! Then he hanged up. I thought he was almighty, he could know psychic-ly what was going on inside me. He seemed just treat me like a insane.”
So here you have realised for yourself that even ‘masters’ do not really in fact know the truth of what goes on in another’s mind: only you do. And, what you must also realise is that – no other being can help you, unless you help yourself. For example, I am giving you perspective of what happened with you and will show you how to help yourself with walking writing and self forgiveness, but you must take the first steps to stop the thoughts, voices and energies inside yourself with applying the tools of writing and self forgiveness – you will realise you can do it, and only you can do it. So – your ‘master’ could not help you, because your thoughts, voices and energies in your mind is what you created, and because you are the creator of your own mind – only you can change yourself inside yourself. Writing and self forgiveness will show you how to do this – to help yourself with your own mind as thoughts, voices and energies.
Quote: “I couldn't resolve it through my master, then I began to look for help in worshiping bodhisattva. To help calm down my thoughts. Because my thoughts were restless, and they are all negative. I was in deep pain but I couldn't find bodhisattva. My situation kept on deteriorate. More and more illusion, voices, blaming spiting Bodhisattva. Why didn't he response to my pleading for help? I spite bodhisattva but then I was in extreme fear and worry afterwards.”
Have a look here: You created the same relationship towards Bodhisattva as you did towards your previous master – looking for help outside of yourself, instead of realising that only you live inside yourself inside your own mind. And because only you are there inside yourself – only you can help yourself. But, because humans do not realise that ALL the thoughts, voices and energies inside us we create ourselves, and we’re responsible for – we tend to look for help outside of ourselves in wanting others to take away our problems; but in reality it cannot and does not work that way.
And have a look – over time, the thoughts, voices and energies just became more and more and more and this will happen and continue happening unless you stand up inside yourself and stop participation in them and change YOU!
And, if you have a look further, you had the same thoughts, voices and energies of spite, blame towards Bodhisattva as you did towards your previous master, because again you made yourself powerless, inferior and making your master and Bodhisattva more than you inside your mind, instead of realising your own ability to assist and support yourself inside yourself. So, the same experience re-played in your mind with your relationship towards Bodhisattva, where your mind projected your own experiences of spite and blame from yourself onto Bodhisattva.
See – our outside world reflect what is in fact happening inside ourselves. This means that, for example – experiencing spite and blame towards Bodhisattva, was showing that you were in fact experiencing spite and blame towards yourself. And this goes for all people in our world – whatever we experience in our thoughts and energies towards others, in fact reveal what we are experiencing towards ourselves; but our mind project it onto others so we don’t ever realise that we’re never experiencing anyone else but OURSELVES!!! I will show you in the self forgiveness examples I will do for you how to assist and support yourself with ‘seeing yourself in others’, meaning how to investigate, for yourself, the thoughts and energies you have towards others, is in fact showing you that it’s the thoughts and energies you have towards yourself. So, your relationship with your master and Bodhisattva outside of yourself, was showing the relationship you were having with you inside yourself – our outside relationships reflect our inside relationship with ourselves.
Quote: “I fear I'd go to hell because of my daring to spite bodhisattva. Then I have illusions of demons from hell come and want to throne me as a devil. I didn't want to because that would imply I have to kill people. I didn't want to but I felt I was getting more and more difficult to control myself. I feared that one day I would (listen to my thoughts/voices) and actually go harm people out there. So when I still have consciousness, I jumped from my home's 5th floor balcony wanted to end my life. But I didn't die……
Here again the illusions became more, the more and more and more you continued to feed your mind with continuing participating in the thoughts and energies, making the mind more powerful – giving the mind your power, instead of realising that the thoughts and energies of the mind is not in fact more powerful than you. You have made your thoughts and energies more powerful because you have separated yourself from your own thoughts and energies, not realising that your thoughts and energies as the mind is parts of you you haven’t realised is in fact you. And because you haven’t realised that the thoughts and energies are you, you have let the thoughts and energies have power and control over you. And if the mind is left undirected – it can take a life of its own and control us to the extent where it completely takes over everything inside ourselves and we completely lose control of ourselves and our physical bodies – as you have experienced where your thoughts and energies as the mind talked you into ending your own life. See – the mind, the thoughts and the energies are so separate from real reality that it cannot value life, because it is not life. The mind is made from energy – so is the thoughts and the voices.
And if we continue living in the mind, we more and more and more separate ourselves from the real physical reality into an illusionary energy reality and then later on believe that the mind reality is real and completely forget about OURSELVES and this REAL PHYSICAL REALITY. Dying or ending your life is NOT THE SOLUTION. Only YOU are the solution to yourself inside yourself. The self forgiveness and writing I will show you is the tools you use to help you get out of your mind illusion reality of energy back into the actual physical reality so that you can start appreciating you, appreciating living and appreciating being here with yourself and make / become something more of yourself in this world than you ever could have in the mind.
At Desteni – this is what we are walking. Each being walking the process of writing and self forgiveness is assisting and supporting themselves in realising that the mind with all the thoughts, backchats and energies is parts of self we have separated ourselves from. And the only way we are going to clean up the mess inside ourselves in taking responsibility for the separation of ourselves as the mind and ‘find ourselves’ again inside ourselves. Also – the process of self forgiveness and writing assist and support self with stopping participation in the energy of the mind, and so stop creating illusions in the mind to come back here into one’s own physical body and live here in the ‘real world’ that we have separated ourselves from. With writing and self forgiveness one also assist and support oneself with BREATHING. To become aware of your breathing with your body as this will help you to not separate yourself in the mind, in the illusions and energy – but be here in the physical with your body, with yourself.
SOLUTION:
3. We have been giving our mind as the thoughts, voices, energies and illusions our power through believing that our mind is more powerful than us, and in that making ourself powerless towards ourselves to change ourselves.
4. To realise that we have the ability to change ourselves inside ourselves through taking back our self power and stopping participation in the mind as the thoughts, voices, illusions and energies.
5. With the tools of writing, self forgiveness and breathing one can assist and support oneself to stop living in the illusions of the mind, and come back to self in one’s own physical body into the real reality that is this physical world we have separated ourselves from as we have lost ourselves in the mind.
Now we will have a look at how self forgiveness works and how to assist and support yourself with self forgiveness with examples I will show you:
First let’s have a look at: WHAT IS SELF FORGIVENESS?
Self-Forgiveness is a tool that one live to assist and support self to take responsibility for one’s mind. With applying self forgiveness, this will assist and support self to realise how you have separated yourselves from your thoughts, voices, energies and illusions and to within that realisation, stop the separation and take back your self-power. One can say, for example that all the thoughts, voices, energies and illusions are like puzzle pieces and we’ve been living like a puzzle in pieces with all the pieces lying all of the place inside ourselves. Self forgiveness assist and support self to take all those pieces of our puzzle as ourselves and put ourselves back together again inside ourselves.
Realise, that – this is going to be a process. There is no ‘magical quick-fix cure’ for what we face as our mind. This is a ‘different way of life’ that you have to adopt, where every day it’s a process of walking writing, self forgiveness and breathing to put all the pieces of the puzzle inside yourself back together again. As you have realise for yourself throughout your life thus far, looking for help outside yourself and instantly wanting to fix yourself: this is not how it works. This process of helping yourself is going to take patience and discipline and realising that you are doing this for you. And, putting a puzzle back together again times time, focus, attention – sometimes you make mistakes, but then try again and stand up. This process you will be walking will be the same.
So – let us have a look at how self forgiveness is done:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my mind, not realising that my mind is me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my thoughts, and in that separation didn’t realise that my thoughts are me and that I have the ability to stop and change myself as my thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the voices in my head is coming from somewhere else, not realising that the voices is what I created over a long period of time of participating in thinking and energies and so the voices is not separate from me, I created the voices. And if I created the voices – I can stop them.
Okay, so here are some self forgiveness examples in looking at the relationship we’ve created with ourselves as the mind in separation and in that separation, made the mind more than ourselves. In realising that the mind is parts of ourselves, as pieces of ourselves – we have the ability to assist and support ourselves to stop and change ourselves as the mind.
WHY IS SELF FORGIVENESS NECESSARY?
Speaking self forgiveness is like – ‘saying sorry to yourself’, but in more deep and intimate way. Saying sorry to yourself for separating yourself from yourself, from not realising that you can actually help yourself, from making your life difficult for yourself, from being hard on yourself, from not helping yourself. And in this self forgiveness as ‘saying sorry to yourself’ you then release yourself / set yourself free from your past so that you can help yourself to create a new future for yourself inside yourself. Through self forgiveness, you let go of the burdens of the past in your mind that is haunting you, and set yourself free to take your power back to change yourself, for yourself.
The words “accept and allow” in the self forgiveness statement – let’s have a look at that:
“Acceptance” is how we have accepted our condition in the mind, acceptance is how we continued to enslave ourselves in the mind as being lost as all the pieces of the puzzle. Acceptance is the experience we have allowed that has stopped us from changing ourselves, because – because you ‘accept’ yourself as all the lost pieces, this acceptance then enslaves you to always being lost and eventually you become that acceptance and live that acceptance that you will always remain lost. Therefore we add in the self forgiveness statement “I forgive myself that I have ACCEPTED…” as this assist and support you to stop that acceptance of yourself of always being lost, for example and help you to change that acceptance to a realisation that you can stop the acceptance and CHANGE YOURSELF! So – when you stop accepting yourself as being ‘lost in the mind’ you then realise that you can stop the lostness and find yourself again!
Now “Allowance” is how we have allowed ourselves to continue existing as being lost in the mind, as being powerless. With allowance, it is like saying: “I can’t do anything to change myself, I am lost and powerless and therefore it will always be like this”. So – allowance is like, continuing to exist as the lost puzzle pieces and not doing anything to change it but continue living and being lost. Allowance is how we give our self-power away to the mind, by ALLOWING it and NOT CHANGING it. Therefore we add in the self forgiveness statement: “I forgive myself that I have accepted and ALLOWED…” as this gives one the opportunity to stop the ALLOWANCE as enslavement to one’s current condition and realise that one can take back one’s SELF-POWER and CHANGE.
So – the words in the statement of the self forgiveness is the keys to assisting and supporting self to stop the acceptance as enslavement and allowance as giving away our self-power to the mind and the pieces of ourselves to bring ourselves as the puzzle pieces back together again.
Another tool to help yourself in this process with is: BREATHING. To focus on your breathing with your body, the in-breath and the out-breath will help you in moments when the mind gets too much and the thoughts, voices and illusions become too overwhelming, to ‘bring yourself back to the real reality’ as the physical body. Your breathing with the physical body will help you quiet the mind so that you can become more stable with yourself inside yourself. So – as you are walking this process for yourself as walking out of the mind reality and coming back to yourself help yourself to BREATHE WITH YOUR BODY, to focus on your breathing. You will find the more you practise this, the more easier it will become to stop participation in the mind, the thoughts, the voices and the energies. So, as you are walking your self forgiveness, and walking throughout your day – doing your daily tasks, you can start focusing on your breathing, or when the mind gets too much or too busy, then all you do is sit down with yourself for a moment, and take deep slow breaths, in-breath and out-breath until you feel that the mind is quieting more and more and more and so you help yourself to stop making the mind so busy and overwhelming.
Alright – here I have now explained to you the basics, what’s happened to you, what self forgiveness is, how it done, why it is done and also how you can help yourself with Breathing. Now it is up to YOU. If you make the decision to take back your self-power and help yourself, we can assist and support you for you to be able to assist and support yourself.
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