接續:
Day 145 - 靈性/Desteni性格
Day 151 - 靈性/Desteni性格的思想維度2
Day 153 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己以這一刻在這裡的情境作為觸發點,觸發與情境相關的記憶/畫面如同想法,然後開始’用Desteni的知識來解釋目前的情境’的暗聊,或沉迷於回憶之中,並參與著暗聊或回憶的能量體驗。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己企圖利用所擁有的知識來解釋/翻譯/感知目前體驗到的情境,用我所認為對的觀點/看法強加在物質世界上面,而沒有只是在這裡體驗這一刻的情境如同我自己的表現,形成了我與自己/這裡/物質的分離。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己企圖利用心智中的知識結構來建構我的虛幻世界,形成了我與現實世界的分離。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己習慣性的想要根據心智中的知識結構去弄懂/合理化在這裡發生了什麼事,而不是僅僅在這裡的呼吸中體驗一體平等的物質世界如同我自己的表現。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己相信/認為給予這一刻在這裡的情境一個解釋/觀點,比只是在這裡呼吸更重要。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與’用Desteni的知識來解釋目前的情境’暗聊的能量體驗,參與了心智建構的虛幻世界,而沒有在這裡呼吸,參與物質的現實世界。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己相信/認為參與心智/能量的虛幻世界,比參與物質的現實世界更重要。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與了’用Desteni的知識來解釋目前的情境’暗聊之後,又繼續沉迷於其他有關’回歸生命’的暗聊,例如:進一步的參與’思考/解釋一個有關回歸生命的領悟/洞見/經驗/訊息/知識’、’向朋友講解/教導Desteni的知識’的暗聊,不斷的餵養/強化靈性/Desteni性格。
我承諾自己當覺察到自己參與了’用Desteni的知識來解釋目前情境’的暗聊,或者正企圖想要弄懂在這裡發生了什麼事時,我停止並回到呼吸。
我了解到此時我只是在用我認為對的觀點/看法強加在物質世界上面,此時我與物質世界是分離的。
我了解到此時我是在企圖利用心智中的知識結構來建構我的虛幻世界,此時我與現實世界的分離。
我了解到自己會習慣性的想要根據心智中的知識結構去弄懂/合理化在這裡發生了什麼事,而沒有僅僅在這裡的呼吸中體驗一體平等的物質世界如同我自己的表現。
我了解到當我這麼做時,我只是在餵養/強化靈性/Desteni性格和心智意識系統,壓抑生命。
2012年10月6日 星期六
2012年10月5日 星期五
Day 156 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度4
接續:
Day 145 - 靈性/Desteni性格
Day 151 - 靈性/Desteni性格的思想維度2
Day 153 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與’批判靈性導師/修行人/光行者’的暗聊,和’與靈性導師/修行人/光行者爭辯真理’的暗聊,在暗聊中常常伴隨著生氣/焦躁的能量。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己曾經相信/認為宗教/靈性知識是真理,並賦予其對的/好的/正面的定義。而後來接觸Desteni的知識後,因為拓展了自己的了解,覺察到了宗教/靈性知識中的欺騙之後,開始賦予其錯的/不好的/負面的定義,並且開始反抗/排斥/斥責與宗教/靈性相關的人事物。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到/了解到我越抵抗什麼就越給什麼力量,所以當我反抗/排斥/斥責與宗教/靈性相關的人事物時,反而強化了宗教/靈性與我的對立與分裂。
所以我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有支持自己只是回到呼吸並且停止對靈性/宗教的抵抗與對Desteni的認同。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己根據Desteni的知識來定義自己,認為Desteni的知識如同我是對的/好的/正面的,宗教/靈性知識是錯的/不好的/負面的,而在我之內形成了Desteni如同我,與宗教/靈性如同其他人的二元性對立關係。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己相信/認為Desteni的知識如同我是對的/好的/正面的真理,宗教/靈性知識是錯的/不好的/負面的欺騙,而在暗聊中與虛幻的對象進行對錯的真理爭辯。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己不滿意現實世界中宗教/靈性人士的表達,而在暗聊中與虛幻的對象進行真理的爭辯,期望在爭辯中能夠說服/改變對方,並不斷的體驗到爭辯時生氣/焦躁的能量,和對於現實世界無力/挫折/不滿意的能量。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有了解到每個人/全體都在回歸生命的進程中,所謂的靈性導師/修行人/光行者也在各自的進程中,每個人只是根據自己目前的了解在表達自己,就像我一樣。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己在了解了宗教/靈性是支持現在的世界系統和心智意識系統的運作,而不是/無法支持一體平等的生命之後,開始反抗/排斥/斥責宗教與靈性,卻沒有看到當我在這麼做時,我仍然是在參與/支持心智意識系統,我與宗教/靈性並沒有分別。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到/了解到這個世界就是我內在一體平等的反映,而這個世界中與宗教/靈性相關的人事物也是與我一體平等的,所以我反抗/排斥/斥責宗教與靈性,其實就是在反抗/排斥/斥責我自己。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己透過參與暗聊來反抗/排斥/斥責宗教與靈性,和支持/認同Desteni,來強化自己的性格/人格/心智意識系統,並且繼續壓抑生命。
我承諾自己當覺察到自己正在參與’批判靈性導師/修行人/光行者’的暗聊,或’與靈性導師/修行人/光行者爭辯真理’的暗聊時,我立即停止參與,並且做一個深呼吸支持自己回到這裡。
我了解到我越抵抗什麼就越給什麼力量,所以當我反抗/排斥/斥責與宗教/靈性相關的人事物時,反而強化了宗教/靈性與我的對立與分裂。
我了解到當我在反抗/排斥/斥責宗教或靈性時,我仍然是在參與/支持心智意識系統並且壓抑生命,我與宗教/靈性並沒有分別。
我了解到這個世界就是我內在一體平等的反映,而這個世界中與宗教/靈性相關的人事物也是與我一體平等的,所以我反抗/排斥/斥責宗教與靈性,其實就是在反抗/排斥/斥責我自己。
我承諾自己透過寫作、自我寬恕、自我修正,來停止與宗教/靈性的對抗,如同停止與自己的分裂,停止繼續為心智意識系統充電,並且實際的活出Desteni的知識,實際的支持自己/世界如同自己回歸一體平等的生命。
2012年10月4日 星期四
Day 155 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度3
接續:
Day 145 - 靈性/Desteni性格
Day 151 - 靈性/Desteni性格的思想維度2
Day 153 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與’思考/解釋一個有關回歸生命的領悟/洞見/經驗/訊息/知識’的暗聊,企圖透過思考去了解/解釋一個領悟/洞見/經驗/訊息/知識。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己在這種暗聊之中當越思考覺得越有道理時,我體驗到了例如滿足的正面能量。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己在這種暗聊之中當只是胡亂的思考時,我體驗到了例如混沌/昏沉的負面能量。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了當覺察到自己參與/沉浸在暗聊之中時,有時候會對自己進行自我批判,而又繼續疊加了負面能量,而不是僅僅的停止並回到呼吸。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到不論我參與正面或者負面能量的暗聊,我都不在這裡,我已經放棄了自己在現實生活中的責任。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己認為我必須把領悟/洞見/經驗/知識/訊息弄得更清楚明白仔細一點,這樣子我才能夠教導朋友或跟朋友講述,因此不斷的沉溺於暗聊中。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己相信/認為透過思考可以把領悟/洞見/經驗/知識/訊息弄得更清楚明白仔細,卻沒有看到我只是根據自己的心智結構在進行合理化的動作,並且餵養/強化/演化了心智意識系統,無法幫助自己/別人如同自己回歸生命。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與’思考/解釋一個有關回歸生命的領悟/洞見/經驗/訊息/知識’的暗聊,並且進一步的繼續參與'向朋友講解/教導Desteni的知識'和'向朋友講解/分享我走過進程的領悟/經驗'的暗聊,而對這些過程沒有覺察,就算覺察到了有時候還是放縱自己參與這些暗聊,而沒有作為自己的主導原則立即停止並回到呼吸,安住於實際的物質生活中。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己存在’我無法停止內在對話/暗聊’這個想法,並且在我相信這個想法的時候,體驗到了無力/挫敗感。。
我承諾自己當覺察到我正在進行’思考/解釋一個有關回歸生命的領悟/洞見/經驗/訊息/知識’的暗聊時,我立即停止並且回到呼吸,然後繼續做我現實中該做的事。
我了解到不論我參與正面或者負面能量的暗聊,我都不在這裡,而是沉溺在心智中被心智奴役。
我了解到在暗聊中思考如何把領悟/洞見/經驗/知識/訊息弄得更清楚明白仔細,其實只是根據自己的心智結構在進行合理化的動作,並且餵養/強化/演化了心智意識系統,無法幫助自己/別人如同自己回歸生命。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與靈性/Desteni性格中’未來我要做/寫些什麼’的暗聊。在一個未來要做的事的想法或畫面浮現時,我沒有安住在這裡呼吸,而是跟著這個想法/畫面而開始進入’未來我要做/寫些什麼’的暗聊之中,並且體驗到焦慮或緊張或煩躁的能量。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己認為我必須為未來的事情做準備,而不斷的在暗聊或想像中處理未來的事,而沒有立即停止並了解到未來還沒到,我這一刻在這裡,我只能夠/只需要做我這一刻需要去面對和處理的事情,而參與有關未來的暗聊只是使我放棄了這一刻對自己和對現實生活的責任,讓我不能夠單純的處理這一刻在這裡的事情。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己認為準備好未來的事情,這樣未來就是可以預知的,那麼我就安心了。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己將’未來是可預知的’與’安心/安全感’連結在一起。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有了解到如果我不斷的參與心智,為未來擔憂/焦慮,而為未來做準備以換取安心/安全感,那麼這樣的安心/安全感是建立在焦慮、擔憂和恐懼上的,總有一天還是得面對自己的焦慮、擔心和恐懼,直到我站起來停止這個模式為止。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己擔心/害怕未來,如同害怕未知,如同害怕死亡。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己相信參與’未來我要做/寫些什麼’的暗聊可以幫助我獲得安心/安全感。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己將安心/安全感建立在一個心智結構上,而沒有信任/接受自己,沒有將安心/安全感建立在呼吸中在物質世界這裡。
我承諾自己當覺察到我正在進行’未來我要做/寫些什麼’的暗聊時,我立即停止並且回到呼吸,然後繼續做我目前實際該面對和處理的事情。
我了解到未來還沒到,我現在在這裡,我只能夠/只需要做我這一刻需要去面對和處理的事情,而參與有關未來的暗聊只是使我放棄了這一刻對自己和對現實生活的責任,讓我不能夠單純的處理這一刻在這裡的事情。
我了解到過去我將安心/安全感建立在'準備好未來的事情/期望未來是可以預知的'之上,而我現在了解到這樣的安心/安全感是建立在焦慮、擔憂和恐懼上的,是建立在一個心智結構上的,總有一天還是得面對並停止自己的焦慮、擔心、恐懼和心智模式。
我了解到真正的安心/安全感是信任/接受自己,並單純的在身體呼吸,安住在物質世界這裡。
2012年10月3日 星期三
Day 154 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度2
接續:
Day 145 - 靈性/Desteni性格
Day 151 - 靈性/Desteni性格的思想維度2
Day 153 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與'向朋友講解/教導Desteni的知識'的暗聊,和'向朋友講解/分享我走過進程的領悟/經驗'的暗聊,在這兩種暗聊之中伴隨著是優越感的能量體驗。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己認為我所知道的知識是對朋友有幫助的,因為他不懂而且需要被幫助因為他有這部分的問題,所以在心智的暗聊中闡述能幫助他的方法/知識。而沒有看到這一切都是在心智中發生的,朋友並不在我所處的環境這裡,而是我沉浸在心智中對虛擬朋友說話。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己認為我知道的知識/領悟比朋友多/正確/有價值,而且我有實修實證的經驗,而賦予我的知識/領悟/經驗正面的評判/價值,卻沒有看到當我不斷的參與心智中的暗聊時,我已經與這些知識/領悟/經驗背道而馳了,只能用它們來餵養心智而不能支持自己回歸生命。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與優越感和自卑感的二元性結構,並根據這個結構來定義和朋友的關係。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有誠實的看到我企圖用優越感來逃避/掩蓋自卑感,而不是僅僅回到呼吸並停止優越感和自卑感的二元性。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己存在教導朋友的慾望,如同期待教導朋友可以讓我體驗正面能量,滿足我的優越感,而不斷的參與心智中’教導朋友知識’的暗聊。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己希望能將''向朋友講解/教導知識'的暗聊實體化,如同將靈性/Desteni性格實體化到物質世界中,以體驗優越感如同正面能量。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到/了解到在現實的生活中,當我真的在向朋友講解/教導知識時,有時候的確會因為朋友接受/認同我的表達而體驗到優越感如同正面能量體驗,有時候卻會因為朋友不接受/不認同我的表達而體驗到挫折/生氣如同負面能量體驗。
所以我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有去覺察到正負極是同時存在的,而我是如何的接受和允許正負能量的存在,並且實體化後果來讓自己體驗。
所以我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到只有我作為心智意識系統/性格/人格時,才需要被接受/認同,並且害怕不被接受/認同。
我承諾自己當覺察到我正在進行'向朋友講解/教導Desteni的知識'的暗聊,和'向朋友講解/分享我走過進程的領悟/經驗'的暗聊時,我立即停止並且回到呼吸,然後繼續做我現實中該做的事。
我了解到此時朋友不在我的環境這裡,此時我是在向心智中虛擬的朋友在虛擬的世界中對話。
我了解到當自己在進行’教導朋友知識’的暗聊時,其實我是在渴望優越感的正面能量體驗,而背後的動機是害怕面對自己的自卑感。
我了解到自己雖然想要回歸生命,但是當我不斷的參與心智中的暗聊時,我已經與這些知識/領悟/經驗背道而馳了,只能用它們來餵養心智而不能支持自己回歸生命。
Day 145 - 靈性/Desteni性格
Day 151 - 靈性/Desteni性格的思想維度2
Day 153 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與'向朋友講解/教導Desteni的知識'的暗聊,和'向朋友講解/分享我走過進程的領悟/經驗'的暗聊,在這兩種暗聊之中伴隨著是優越感的能量體驗。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己認為我所知道的知識是對朋友有幫助的,因為他不懂而且需要被幫助因為他有這部分的問題,所以在心智的暗聊中闡述能幫助他的方法/知識。而沒有看到這一切都是在心智中發生的,朋友並不在我所處的環境這裡,而是我沉浸在心智中對虛擬朋友說話。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己認為我知道的知識/領悟比朋友多/正確/有價值,而且我有實修實證的經驗,而賦予我的知識/領悟/經驗正面的評判/價值,卻沒有看到當我不斷的參與心智中的暗聊時,我已經與這些知識/領悟/經驗背道而馳了,只能用它們來餵養心智而不能支持自己回歸生命。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與優越感和自卑感的二元性結構,並根據這個結構來定義和朋友的關係。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有誠實的看到我企圖用優越感來逃避/掩蓋自卑感,而不是僅僅回到呼吸並停止優越感和自卑感的二元性。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己存在教導朋友的慾望,如同期待教導朋友可以讓我體驗正面能量,滿足我的優越感,而不斷的參與心智中’教導朋友知識’的暗聊。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己希望能將''向朋友講解/教導知識'的暗聊實體化,如同將靈性/Desteni性格實體化到物質世界中,以體驗優越感如同正面能量。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到/了解到在現實的生活中,當我真的在向朋友講解/教導知識時,有時候的確會因為朋友接受/認同我的表達而體驗到優越感如同正面能量體驗,有時候卻會因為朋友不接受/不認同我的表達而體驗到挫折/生氣如同負面能量體驗。
所以我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有去覺察到正負極是同時存在的,而我是如何的接受和允許正負能量的存在,並且實體化後果來讓自己體驗。
所以我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到只有我作為心智意識系統/性格/人格時,才需要被接受/認同,並且害怕不被接受/認同。
我承諾自己當覺察到我正在進行'向朋友講解/教導Desteni的知識'的暗聊,和'向朋友講解/分享我走過進程的領悟/經驗'的暗聊時,我立即停止並且回到呼吸,然後繼續做我現實中該做的事。
我了解到此時朋友不在我的環境這裡,此時我是在向心智中虛擬的朋友在虛擬的世界中對話。
我了解到當自己在進行’教導朋友知識’的暗聊時,其實我是在渴望優越感的正面能量體驗,而背後的動機是害怕面對自己的自卑感。
我了解到自己雖然想要回歸生命,但是當我不斷的參與心智中的暗聊時,我已經與這些知識/領悟/經驗背道而馳了,只能用它們來餵養心智而不能支持自己回歸生命。
2012年10月2日 星期二
Day 153 - 靈性/Desteni性格的暗聊維度
參考:Character Dimensions – BACKCHAT Dimension (Part 3): DAY 169
接續:
Day 145 - 靈性/Desteni性格
Day 150 - 靈性/Desteni性格的思想維度
Day 151 - 靈性/Desteni性格的思想維度2
Day 152 - 靈性/Desteni性格的想像維度
當我參與某個想法而啟動了靈性/Desteni性格時,接著就進入與這個性格相關的想像、內在對話/暗聊的程序中了。
例如:在閱讀Desteni的資料時,當我覺得了解其中的意思了,這時候浮現了一個’我在向朋友講解/教導剛剛所了解的知識’的想法、畫面,然後我接著這個想法,開始想像我和朋友在咖啡廳中談話,然後浮現’這個朋友有這方面的問題’、’這個朋友困在同一個模式很久了’的暗聊,整個過程從想法到想像到暗聊都伴隨著優越感如同正面能量體驗。
或者看到facebook上有人發文在表達覺醒/合一的觀念,這時候一個’他還是執著在能量的幻像中’的想法浮現,然後開始進行和他辯論的暗聊'你沒有把全體生命納入考慮,只是在追求個人美好的幻像和優越感的體驗罷了'、’你所謂的開悟只是心智的幻像,對於現實世界的苦難根本沒幫助’,整個過程從想法到暗聊都伴隨著排斥感如同負面能量體驗。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己當與'回歸生命'相關的想法浮現時,我接受和允許了自己進入心智的想像、暗聊、能量體驗之中。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到/了解到在進行想像、暗聊時,我如何的將自己分離進心智如同能量之中 - 在想像中產生能量體驗,然後進一步的從話語/暗聊中產生能量體驗來驗證我的想像。將我的想像與暗聊和能量體驗連結在一起,將我佔據在心智之中,而不能單純的在真實現實這裡呼吸,做我該做的事。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己在心智中進行能量性的對話,而沒有在實際的物質生活中在這裡與自己溝通,在這個真實世界的擴展/學習/成長進程中使用實際的、物質性的溝通,例如閱讀/寫作。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到/了解到心智存在的本性、心智與能量的關係,和我在這裡面所有的責任,如同伴隨著我接受和允許了自己參與負面能量,我將自動的產生/創造正面能量的機會/空間,這就是我在想像和暗聊的關係上所發生的事情 - 一直在我的心智中透過能量忙著在創造(能量體驗),而不是參與/活在物質世界這裡。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到/了解到我如何的在心智中創造能量體驗/關係在'回歸生命'上,從想法到想像到暗聊都伴隨著正面或負面的能量,沒有看到我是如何的透過這些心智活動在創造我的體驗,並且接受和允許自己參與在其中,而沒有在物質世界中伴隨著呼吸安住於單純的生活中。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了正/負面的能量體驗影響、控制、支配在實際/物質生活的一個片刻中我是誰 - 我接受和允許了能量透過想像和暗聊,在正/負面的能量體驗中,破壞和放棄了我在實際/物質/真實世界中的一個片刻的責任。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己在那個片刻關注能量和能量體驗比呼吸更多,並且'透過想像和暗聊來娛樂心智'比'承擔起我對自己和這個物質、真實世界的責任'更多。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到/了解到由於接受和允許了我對於能量、想像和暗聊的這種關係 - 把注意放在娛樂心智和產生能量上,比放在對自己的責任、呼吸、和生活上更多 - 那將會影響我人生中的所有領域,從微小到巨大的,甚至看看我對這個世界和人類如同一個整體的關係:如果每個人都停止這些只能利益心智和個人自我利益的心智能量遊戲,並且我們都實際的做到對自己和我們的世界負責任的生活,我們可以站在一起並且連同彼此、連同這個物質存在如同一個整體,來改造我們的生命/生活。
我承諾自己當覺察到我正在能量體驗中進行內在對話/暗聊,和/或參與了替代現實如同想像時,我停止參與,做一個深呼吸,然後做我在現實中該做的事情。
我了解到如果我接受和允許自己繼續參與想像和在內在對話 - 我將接受和允許了自己進入能量/想像如同心智中,並且放棄了自己和在我的世界/現實中對自己的責任。
我承諾自己當覺察到我在心智中進行內在對話/暗聊和/或想像時,立即的協助和支持自己從能量體驗移動到身體呼吸中,進行一個深呼吸作為實際行動將自己從對這裡的分離如同心智,移動到一體平等的這裡如同物質世界。
我了解到如果我在任何情況接受和允許了自己繼續參與心智和能量,而沒有立即的在那個瞬間將自己推動到實際/物質的修正的話,那麼我將接受和允許自己沉迷於心智中,並且破壞/放棄了在這個物質/真實的世界中對自己和對我的生命/生活的責任。
我承諾自己協助和支持自己了解到我已經接受和允許了自己參與靈性/Desteni性格很久了,參與了其能量/想像/暗聊,而沒有了解到每當我進入心智並且在面對責任時放棄了自己時,已經實體化成為了的整個人格系統的物質-心智記憶層。所以每次我面對責任時 - 所有的記憶/階層如同過去我進入心智並且放棄自己的時刻,會隨著整個人格系統'啟動',這會促成我去抵抗在簡單/物質/實際的呼吸中移動自己的體驗。
因此,我承諾自己協助和支持自己當我面臨抗拒去簡單/物質/實際的移動,和在物質/真實世界中指導自己時 - 那麼這個抗拒僅僅是我人格系統中的能量- 階層/維度,而每次我承諾自己堅持在我的現實責任時,這時候正是我與自己在一起在身體/物質之中並等同於身體/物質,從能量體驗走向物質/實際的生活。
因此,我承諾自己不接受和允許自己將抗拒作為藉口、原因或理由,而使我進入能量和放棄自己,如同我了解到那又是另一種心智操控的形式,來讓我放棄對自己和對我的現實生活的責任。
2012年9月27日 星期四
Day 149 - 活出知識2
接續 Day 148 - 活出知識
當我覺察到自己正準備開始或已經開始有關’回歸生命’的思考/想像/回憶/內在對話/暗聊/能量反應時,我停止並回到身體呼吸。
我了解到我是活著的文字,我所表達的每一個字都有其後果要去負責的。
我了解到當我有觀點、看法、意見而其連結著畫面時,這些其實是心智中的知識/訊息結構。
我了解到當我實際的活出知識時,我與知識才是一體平等的,不是分離的,否則知識只是被心智意識系統利用來和別人競爭/衝突/爭吵的利器,用來捍衛人格/自我,用來創造自己的優越感/有力感/正面能量體驗,用來逃避自己的恐懼/自卑感/無力感/負面能量,用來確保自己的生存,用來取得自己的利益而不是利益全體生命。。
我了解到自己過去將’回歸生命’在心智中賦予了重要性,賦予了’好的/對的/正面的’的定義,而不斷的想離開這裡去追求/完成回歸生命這件事。
而現在我了解到生命就在這裡,就在每一刻身體的呼吸中。
我了解到參與’回歸生命’的思考/想像/內在對話/暗聊只是繼續餵養/演化心智意識系統,強化心智意識系統的力量,強化我的性格/人格,強化我與自己/別人/整體的分離,而無法實際幫助自己回歸生命。
我了解到隨著累積的知識/訊息越多,我或許能演化成為一個高級/優越的心智意識系統,但是卻不能改變’我是誰’,我仍然只是系統而非生命。
我了解到當累積的知識/訊息越多,所要進行的自我寬恕也就越多,才能解構心智中的知識/訊息結構。
我承諾自己致力於在身體呼吸,透過呼吸讓自己慢下來,讓我可以更清楚的覺察到/看到跟’回歸生命’有關的想法/想像/內在對話/暗聊/能量反應的出現與模式,進而作為自己的主導原則回到呼吸,停止參與這些心智模式/元件。
我承諾自己透過寫作了解自己的性格/人格之中,思考/想像/內在對話/暗聊/能量反應/行為模式/實體化後果是如何在運作與呈現,並且透過自我寬恕來將其解構。然後重建能夠支持自己實際的/一體平等的活在物質世界的心智模式,並活出這些新的模式,而不是將這些新模式淪為心智中的知識結構,導致自己仍然停留在舊模式中,無法做出實際的改變。
Day 148 - 活出知識
接續 Day 145 - 靈性/Desteni性格
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己利用知識/訊息/經驗來作為和別人競爭/衝突/爭吵的利器,用來捍衛人格/自我,用來創造自己的優越感/有力感/正面能量體驗,用來逃避自己的恐懼/自卑感/無力感/負面能量,用來確保自己的生存。在這之中,知識/訊息/經驗只是用來強化心智,用來爭取自己的個人利益,用來加強與其他人/整體的分裂。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己將所聽到的訊息經過了解後成為了知識,然後就只停留在了解知識、表達知識的階段,而沒有實際的平等如一的活出知識。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有確實的活出’每一刻在身體呼吸/每一刻在這裡’的知識。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有確實的活出每次自我寬恕完後的自我修正。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己與知識/訊息/經驗是分離的,這些被心智意識系統利用來取得自己的利益,而不是利益全體生命。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有活出知識,讓活著的知識作為我生命的表達與體驗。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有了解到我是活著的文字,我所表達的每一個字都有其後果要去負責的。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己根據知識/訊息而形成了觀點、看法、意見,並且連結著畫面儲存在心智中。
而我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有看到我是如何的以想法/畫面作為入口,進入心智人格的想像、內在對話/暗聊、情緒/感覺反應、行為模式之中,然後就把這些心智元件當成是我了。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己相信知識就是力量,而渴望不斷的累積知識,如同不斷的強化心智意識系統的力量,支持自己作為心智意識系統繼續利用知識來和其他心智意識系統競爭求生存,根據知識來表達/行動/做決定,而遺忘了如何作為生命來表達自己。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己不斷的利用知識來創造心智中的系統,然後允許自己作為系統而活,被系統控制/影響/奴役,所以我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有活過,是系統在活著。
我寬恕自己接受和與允許了自己沒有看到現在的世界系統正是由訊息/知識堆積出來的,我的知識與別人的知識互相衝突/競爭,而將生命作為競爭下的犧牲品 - 例如:人力勞工、動物絕種、樹林砍伐、大自然的汙染。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有了解到隨著累積的知識/訊息越多,我或許能演化成為一個高級/優越的心智意識系統,但是卻不能改變’我是誰’,我仍然只是系統而非生命。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己沒有領悟到當我累積的知識/訊息越多,所要進行的自我寬恕也就越多,才能解構心智中的知識/訊息結構。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己將’回歸生命’在心智中賦予了重要性,賦予了’好的/對的/正面的’的定義,而不斷的想離開這裡去追求/完成回歸生命這件事,卻忘了生命就在這裡,就在每一刻身體的呼吸中。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己相信參與’回歸生命’的思考/想像/內在對話/暗聊可以幫助自己回歸生命,而在每次與’回歸生命’相關的字句/想法/畫面/記憶在腦中浮現時,我就被吸引然後沉迷在其中,卻沒有看到當我參與思考/想像/內在對話/暗聊時,我正背離了生命而支持/加強心智的力量與對自己的分離,我離生命也就越來越遠了。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己參與’回歸生命’的思考/內在對話/暗聊來替心智意識系統充電,來強化我的性格/人格,來強化我與自己/別人/整體的分離。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己將’Desteni的訊息’在心智中賦予了重要性,賦予了’好的/對的/正面的’的定義,而不斷的想要閱讀更多的訊息,了解更多的知識,卻沒有實際的活出Desteni的知識。
我寬恕自己接受和允許了自己將Desteni的訊息/知識作為思考/內在對話/暗聊的素材,用來餵養心智意識系統,而不是支持自己回歸生命。
2012年9月21日 星期五
Day 145 - 靈性/Desteni性格
接續 Day 4 - 靈性人格、靈性知識,Day 78 - 爭論靈性知識,Day 101 - 和朋友聊Desteni
在我的心智中有很大比例的內在對話/暗聊是跟回歸生命有關的,例如:向我的朋友教導/陳述什麼是一體平等、跟別人講解我走過進程的領悟/經驗、在和別人爭論什麼樣才是真的一體平等/對全體生命最好/生命、透過我現在所了解的Desteni的知識去解釋一個經驗/一個情境、根據Desteni的知識去解讀/批判一個靈性導師/修行者/光行者、回憶一段看過的知識內容、回憶與朋友談論進程的過程。
或者當我看到facebook上那些有關光與愛、修行消業、正面思考的發文時,也都會觸發批判性的內在對話/暗聊。
簡的來說就是我把自己行走在回歸生命的進程中的知識/領悟/經驗,轉變成為餵養心智的養分,變成心智中喋喋不休的內在對話/暗聊,形成了一邊企圖停止心智,一邊又繼續支持心智運作的矛盾。當然現在我了解到這些內在對話/暗聊都是我與自己分離的部分,我非常大程度的根據自己的靈性性格/Desteni性格來定義自己,然後不斷參與這些性格所產生的想法/內在對話/暗聊。但是即使有這個了解,而且我也覺察到這種情況,不過卻仍然非常容易被這類的想法/內在對話/暗聊所吸引,而參與/沉迷在其中。
這種性格的養成從我一開始接觸佛教修行時就開始了,那時候會根據我所接收到的佛教知識/訊息/信念來批判這個世界的情況/周圍的人事物/甚至批判自己。後來轉換到新時代,也根據那些通靈訊息/光與愛的知識來否定佛教或這個世界中某些’過時’的觀念。現在接觸了Desteni,這個模式仍然在持續運作。
在這個模式中,我被靈性性格/Desteni性格所驅動,根據所學的知識形成腦中大量的想法/內在對話/暗聊,頭腦根本停不下來,而沒有去活出所學的知識,實際的幫助自己停止思考/心智活動。
反而在我參與靈性性格/Desteni性格所產生的想法/內在對話/暗聊時,常會體驗到優越感,因為我自認為知道的比別人多/正確,我有過人的領悟和實修實證的體驗。而除了優越感外,我也常體驗到焦躁、生氣的情緒,因為這種時候我正在跟心智中想像的對象爭論誰的見解是對的,進行比較輸贏的遊戲。
在寫到這裡時,觸發了青少年時常常跟媽媽吵架的記憶,內容在吵什麼已經沒印象了,不過記得每次吵架的時候我總是非常生氣/憤怒,我很想要吵贏媽媽,當然每次我都輸了,因為她是大人。
根據這個記憶,我青少年時允許了自己作為自卑/無力的角色,而渴望透過爭吵/衝突來取得勝利,體驗優越/有力量的感覺,而我所擁有的知識/訊息/信念/經驗就是拿來掩飾自己的自卑/無力感,和別人爭吵/衝突的利器。
這個模式我現在仍然接受和允許它繼續影響/控制我,而我也了解到繼續參與這個模式對於消除自卑/無力感沒有幫助,對於解決生活的問題/痛苦沒有幫助,對於我和整體回歸生命的進程沒有幫助,所以我必須支持自己了解並停止這個模式。
在我的心智中有很大比例的內在對話/暗聊是跟回歸生命有關的,例如:向我的朋友教導/陳述什麼是一體平等、跟別人講解我走過進程的領悟/經驗、在和別人爭論什麼樣才是真的一體平等/對全體生命最好/生命、透過我現在所了解的Desteni的知識去解釋一個經驗/一個情境、根據Desteni的知識去解讀/批判一個靈性導師/修行者/光行者、回憶一段看過的知識內容、回憶與朋友談論進程的過程。
或者當我看到facebook上那些有關光與愛、修行消業、正面思考的發文時,也都會觸發批判性的內在對話/暗聊。
簡的來說就是我把自己行走在回歸生命的進程中的知識/領悟/經驗,轉變成為餵養心智的養分,變成心智中喋喋不休的內在對話/暗聊,形成了一邊企圖停止心智,一邊又繼續支持心智運作的矛盾。當然現在我了解到這些內在對話/暗聊都是我與自己分離的部分,我非常大程度的根據自己的靈性性格/Desteni性格來定義自己,然後不斷參與這些性格所產生的想法/內在對話/暗聊。但是即使有這個了解,而且我也覺察到這種情況,不過卻仍然非常容易被這類的想法/內在對話/暗聊所吸引,而參與/沉迷在其中。
這種性格的養成從我一開始接觸佛教修行時就開始了,那時候會根據我所接收到的佛教知識/訊息/信念來批判這個世界的情況/周圍的人事物/甚至批判自己。後來轉換到新時代,也根據那些通靈訊息/光與愛的知識來否定佛教或這個世界中某些’過時’的觀念。現在接觸了Desteni,這個模式仍然在持續運作。
在這個模式中,我被靈性性格/Desteni性格所驅動,根據所學的知識形成腦中大量的想法/內在對話/暗聊,頭腦根本停不下來,而沒有去活出所學的知識,實際的幫助自己停止思考/心智活動。
反而在我參與靈性性格/Desteni性格所產生的想法/內在對話/暗聊時,常會體驗到優越感,因為我自認為知道的比別人多/正確,我有過人的領悟和實修實證的體驗。而除了優越感外,我也常體驗到焦躁、生氣的情緒,因為這種時候我正在跟心智中想像的對象爭論誰的見解是對的,進行比較輸贏的遊戲。
在寫到這裡時,觸發了青少年時常常跟媽媽吵架的記憶,內容在吵什麼已經沒印象了,不過記得每次吵架的時候我總是非常生氣/憤怒,我很想要吵贏媽媽,當然每次我都輸了,因為她是大人。
根據這個記憶,我青少年時允許了自己作為自卑/無力的角色,而渴望透過爭吵/衝突來取得勝利,體驗優越/有力量的感覺,而我所擁有的知識/訊息/信念/經驗就是拿來掩飾自己的自卑/無力感,和別人爭吵/衝突的利器。
這個模式我現在仍然接受和允許它繼續影響/控制我,而我也了解到繼續參與這個模式對於消除自卑/無力感沒有幫助,對於解決生活的問題/痛苦沒有幫助,對於我和整體回歸生命的進程沒有幫助,所以我必須支持自己了解並停止這個模式。
2012年4月16日 星期一
Sunette 談心智系統的運作及自我寬恕的原理
轉載自:http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_9e6c68a001011l5n.html
這是Sunette回覆給一位存有的信件,內容提到人類的心智系統是如何的運作以及運用寫作、自我寬恕和呼吸來協助/支援自己來停止心智系統的能量。還有提到為何要使用寬恕以及寬恕的原理,解釋得非常詳細、非常清楚。信件內容如下:
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你人生所經歴的所有人類一樣心智系統(mind)的運作是一樣的. 你比大部份人類体驗到心智的幅度更加(極度)的強烈, 然而世界上有很多人仍然/曾經有(和你同樣)程度或類似的体驗.
我會在這篇文章回覆給你解釋你的心智系統發生過什麼一回事, 它們怎樣發生和為什麼會發生. 還有栛助和支援你的解決辨法.
讓我們開始看一看這幾點:
*** 在我20歲時跟隨著父母親參加了佛教,也跟隨著出家師父舉辦過兒童夏令營。那是一段開心的日子。後來跟著另一個老師學習佛法。一開始起了一個對老師不恭敬的念頭,心中開始悔恨交加。然後胸口常有一股能量,自己一直控制不住的能量,常覺得自己像一台印表機,主機在別的地方,別人輸入甚麼在我的腦海中就出現甚麼。我一直無法掌控自己。
對這個 "大師"的不敬, 指責 和怨恨思想來自你自已的心智系統, 並且稱為 "暗聊back chat)". 這種暗聊有時來自心智系統裏自動出現, 也有源自我們的性格. 所以, 如果一個人對另一個人(在裏面)有這些不敬, 指責和怨恨的暗聊 它事實在給我們揭露自已沒有留意重點. 透過你對這 "大師"的不敬, 指責和怨恨顯示你對自已不敬, 指責和怨恨自已, 然而你把它往外投射在這大師身上. 我們的外世界和遇到的人其實是我們自已的本質寫照. 意思是, 你(針)對任何/另一個人的感受/体驗, 事實上在給你揭露/顯示你自已裏面(一直抑壓/無視)怎樣体驗着自已, 怎樣對待自已 - 這些給你揭露你怎對待自已(與自已的關係). 所有人類都看不出這點: 這 - 一切我們在自已裏面所感受/所想的事實上全都 "源自我們自已". 所有我們對某人/其他人/某物某事的感受/所想 - 事實上就是我們對自已(作出)的感受/所想.
(我遲些在文章後面會教你怎樣 - 從你對其他人的感受/想法, 怎樣看出實際上它在告訢給你看你在怎樣對待/感受你自已的.)
我們思想的想念/想法, 這些稱為暗聊的對話(暗聊一些被處理過的想法, 以一種在我們自已心智系統裏形成真實對話形式的思想, 所以 - 所有在我們自已心智系統世界裏的談話, 都是我們從/透過自已的想念/想法製造出來的) - 所以, 這些想念/想法/暗聊(能夠)在我們身体裏(抽取)產生能量, 就是你過往在胸口所体驗的. 所以 - 這些你感受到的能量源自你在你心智系統裏面(對自已)的想念/想法.
現時, 心智系統和這些想念/想法和能量是 "自動化模式"的, 因為我們把心智系統設計成/製造成與我們自已是分開的.
所以, 心智系統, 這些想法和能量實際上是屬於/是我們的一部份,
這部份我們與自已分離了, 並且它為自已製造了一個/一種 "(獨立)意識", 這些在現時"佔據/主使/控制"着我們指揮自已,
活自已的能力. 這是為什麼你感到像 "自已越來越失控"的原因,
因為現時我們的心智系統, 我們自已的想念/想法,
我們的能量操縱/主使着我們的一切, 因為我們沒有為他們承擔自我責任, 甚至沒有察覺出實際上它們是我們(自已的一部份).
因為處於這種分離(狀態), 我們 "忘記了" 我們過往怎樣編寫自已的心智系統, 自已的想念/想法和我們的能量,
而我們就這樣地產生自已的心智系統, 這些想法和能量是某種(狂暴)而自已沒有辨法控制它們的想法/觀念;
而事實上我們自已足以制止和指揮它們的.你只需要學會怎樣做 (這正是我們繼續往下面看我會教你的).
*** 我一直認為我的老師神通廣大,應該可以解決我的問題,但是並沒有。我跟他說我的問題,他只是低頭不語,甚麼話也沒有說。我去找他好幾次,他問我有什麼問題?我說我心很不安。他學著中國禪宗五祖大師對六祖慧能說:「心不安?你把心拿來,我幫你安。」
慧能大師因此而開悟。可是我並沒有,我持續過著不安的生活,隨著一次一次去找他,都得不到解答。一次比一次沮喪,一次比一次失落。
這點正是所有人類 "都會迷失"的 - 當我們嘗試往 "外面", 向其他人求救, 當解決辨法永遠都在我們自已裏面. 人類錯在: 是我們製造我們自已的心智系統, 我們自已的想念/想法和我們的能量亦因為這點: 事實上, 沒有人任何人知道我們自已的心智系統是怎樣運作的, 因為在你裏面就只有 "你自已"一個在心智裏面! 沒有任何人, 不管是正常人或甚至一個大師能夠幫你應付你的心智系統, 因為他們不是住在你的心智裏面的 - 只有你自已是. 所以 - 只有你自已才能救助自已, 透過了解你作為一個心智系統是怎樣運作的, 並且在你自已裏面站起來指揮你的心智系統/想念/想法/能量, 你不再被這些控制着. 每一個人永遠都往自已外面尋找解決辨法/栛助/答案, 從來沒有往 - 因為 "真正"的栛助/解決辨法不是往外面找的, 不在 "外面", 而是在自已裏面, 是你自已. 所以 - 我會往後教你自我-宽恕和寫作, 都是一些會栛助你在/處於你心智系統, 想念/想法和能量裏面時指揮自已, 不再令自已受它們的控制, 而是你站起來決定要改變自已(的地方). 沒有任何人可以替你制止你的心智系統, 想念/想法和能量 - 只有我們自已才能夠為自已做到, 因為這些心智系統, 思想/想法和能量都是自已, 是我們親手製造出來的, 我們要為此負上自我責任.
*** 我開始懷疑我心中的負面能量是否跟他有關,因為他有神通,他知道我對他的不滿,我對他的不恭敬。所以他討厭我,只要他一個念頭我就會不舒服.
這是另一個, 我們在心智系統裏面的範例 - 我們投映在別人身上, 但事實上這些是我們在自已裏面体驗着自已而不關其他人事的. 心智系統是一個有趣的系統, 它能夠一直說服你進入相信, 例如這些 "負能量" 是源自別人發出的; 然而事實上我們自已在自已裏面, 透過自已的思想, 產生這些能量的. 透過這些在我們腦裏面不斷想/與自已的對話, 的想念生產出來.
所以, 在這裏 - 這些你對這大師的 "負能量", 實際上是你在自已裏面對自已所体驗(感受)到的負能量, 是你透過你在心智系統裏面的思想/自我交談自已製造出來的. 心智系統在我們裏面可以同時製造正能量和負能量的, 這此都是透過我們思想/想念的性質製造出來的. 所以 - 如果你接受和容許你裏面有負面的想念/想法, 你就會造出負能量, 如果你接受和容許正面的想念, 你就會造出正能量. 所有這些正和負面的想念/想法與能量同時源自我們的心智系統並且把我們從物質性身体分開了 - 不再每一刻都處於(活在)是這裏(Here)在真實世界中. 所以, 心智系統 - 當我們讓思想和能量牽着鼻子走; 把我們從本來是與身体一体在是 "這裏/當下"(here)的, 而因此導至我們極容易陷入自已的心智系統裏面, 因為它是一個極混亂和容易迷失的地方 - 就如你過往已經所体驗過的一樣. 所以 - 運用自我寬恕和自我寫作, 這些我在後面都會逐一解釋它們的運作原理; 你能夠幫助/引領自已走出已陷入了自已在心智系統裏面的迷失狀態, 並且變回在身体裏面穩定下來, 把自已帶回現實(環境)中. 並透過這樣終止你裏面的的混亂和迷失狀態回復是 "這裏". 對你會是一個進程; 但一如你過往所体驗過的一樣 - 沒有任何人可以幫到你的; 這問題不會有 "輕鬆快捷的解決方法"; 你必須要和只能夠自救; 而將會有很多人透過給你看怎樣運用這些自我宽恕和自我寫作的工具, 來栛助和支援你. 然而真正走每一步和應用這些工具, 真正不斷下功夫去 "行動/做"的 - 只有你能夠為自已栛助自已.
明白, 這些 - 你覺得這大師擁有 "超自然"力量是一道你在自已心智系統裏面製造的信念. 如果人類真的擁有超自然力量 - 這個世界早就已經變成一個徹㡳不會像今天的世界! 因此, 你跟你的師父的關係只是一道你在心智系統裏面, 透過你自已的思想/想法和你在心智系統腦裏的交談製造出來的 "信念", 因為你相信他比你 "更高超". 然而 - 沒有一個人類是比其他人 "更高超"的. 所有人類都有一個心智系統, 思想/想念和能量. 唯一令某些人更強大是我們對他們, 自已在心智系統裏產生/相信這些信念. 所以 - 當你在心智系統裏相信禪師是比你自已 "更高超", 你令自已相信 "他必定/有能力幫助你"; 而不是察覺到我們自已就是力量本身可以幫助自已. 所以 - 你必需要察覺這點: 世上沒有大師 - 不管你有多相信他們有 "多高超", 他們幫不了你的; 因為他們不是(住)在你/你的心智系統裏面: 只有你自已是, 因此只有你自已能栛助自已.
所以, 在這裏 - 重點是拋開你對大師比你 "更高超" 並且栛助和支援你自已這天生的力量, 就是你自已, 並且栛助自已指揮心智系統令它不再控制着你: 只有你能夠幫助自已完成這使命 - 世上沒有人可以替你做(就如你過往已經歴過的一樣!).還有, 這些你相信他對你不敬, 不滿意和憤恨(你) - 實際上在揭露給你看你在怎樣對待你自已. 記着, 所有我們在心裏面想的 - 永遠都從自我們自已裏面產生出來的.心智系統把我們(的投映在別人身上好讓我們不會察覺到這一切原來實際上是發自我們自已的, 然而我們永遠都把我們心裏面体驗到的, 只埋怨在對方身上因此永遠不會察覺到這事實上我們永遠都在自已在裏面感受/体驗着的是自已, 並且因為我們沒有察覺這點 - 我們沒有對自已的心智系統, 自已的思想/想念和我們自已的能量承擔責任; 沒有察覺出我們自已本身就是問題的根源.
所以 - 在這個例子中, 當你覺得這大師在對你不敬, 不滿和憤恨 - 就是一個我們的心智系統怎樣投映自已在別人身上的例子. 所以, 例如 - 這些不敬, 不滿和憤恨, 事實上是從你自已裏面洐生出來的, 並且準確的顯示給你看你在自已裏面, 怎樣体驗/對待自已. 是你事實上對你自已不敬, 是你對自已不滿和事實上是你對自已把這些投射在你的師父身上好讓你不用看出這些, 事實上是你在對你自已的感覺而感到憤恨. 因此, 我們在自已的心智系統裏面迷失了, 相信我們有的是對其他人的感受, 然而同時間一直以來 - 我們只是在感受着的是自已.
*** 然後我開始出現幻聽,出現一些學長咒罵我的聲音,本來想不要理會這個聲音。但是時間久了,也開始覺得不耐煩,忍不住要辯駁、抱怨、要回罵回去。結果就是自己在自己的腦海中不斷的編織故事。然後自己給自己回應。自己罵自己。對於自己這樣的現象,只有越來恐慌、越來越害怕。
心智系統是這樣運作的: 當我們越參與投入我們的思想/想念和能量時, 它就會變得越來越猛烈最終附強到一個思想/想念和能量能夠轉化成幻覺和更多的幻聽.
所有人類沒有察覺到真相是
- 所有這些在我們腦裏面的幻覺, 幻聽,
是我們透過參與思想/想念和能量產生出來的. 當我們越投入自已的思想/想念和能量時, 我們越
"餵養壯大我們的心智系統". 就這樣我們把自已的力量/責任傳到心智系統身上,
然後心智系統變得比我們更強大. 所以 - 這些我們與心智系統的關係,
就是這些思想/想念和能量, 變得比我們更強大:
我們透過沒有制止自已的思想/想念和能量並且下定決心與我們的身体一起(每一刻都)活在呼吸裏. 所以, 當我們越投入思想與能量時, 心智系統就越來越強大,
而我們就越來越渺小. 所以 - 當越來越多幻覺和幻聽出現在腦海裏出現時必須要明白: 是我不斷在餵養我的心智系統越來越壯大, 反而沒有制止我的思想和能量. 因此要察覺到,
甚至連幻覺也是我們在心智系統裏面透過自已的思想和內心對話和反應製造出來的.
所以 - 現在是你重新取回你的自我-力量並且不再接受或容許自已把自我-力量下放給心智系統. 我會協助和支援你透過教你怎樣用寫作和自我-宽恕來, 和怎樣停止參與思想/想念和能量. 令自已不再餵養心智系統的食糧, 並且為自已取回你的自我-力量, 栛助和支援自已活在你的物質身体裏面而不是活在心智系統裏.
*** 一直打電話給老師,每次他都不耐煩的問我甚麼事?我越來越驚恐也越說不出來是怎麼回事。只會哭。然後他很不高興的說:「問你甚麼事也不講,只是哭有甚麼好哭的。」就掛電話。我以為他神通廣大,可以知道我發生了甚麼事情?但是我想我搞錯了。他應該是把我當成瘋子一樣的看待吧!
這裏你察覺到甚至 "大師"們事實上完全不知道其他人心智系統裏面發生什麼事的: 只有你最清楚. 並且, 你還需要察覺 - 沒有人可以幫助你的, 除非你自救. 例如, 我正在對你的過往經歴給你一些看法, 並且教你怎樣用寫作和自我宽恕逐步的栛助自已, 然而第一步你必須透過寫作和自我宽恕, 制止這些在你心智腦海的思想/想法, 幻聽和能量 - 你會察覺你能夠做到的, 並且世上只有你能夠做到. 所以 - 你的 "師父"幫不了你, 因為這些在你心智系統裏的思想/想念, 幻聽和能量都是製造出來的, 而因為你是你心智系統裏面的總設計師 - 只有你在自已裏面可以改變自已. 寫作和自我宽恕能夠令你/你帶領自已一步一步完成 - 利用你自已的心智系統即是思想, 幻聽和能量來栛助自已.
*** 在老師這得不到解決的辦法。我開始希望佛菩薩可以幫忙。可以讓我的念頭停下來。因為我的念頭一直無法停止,而且全是負面的念頭,讓我痛苦萬分。但是我也找不到佛菩薩。我的狀況一直持續惡化當中,出現更多的幻聽、幻覺。對佛菩薩有更多的抱怨。為何我苦苦哀求,他都不來救我,我在心中咒罵著佛菩薩。然後又覺得驚恐萬分
這裏看一看: 你對菩薩建立了與你以前的師父一樣的關係 - 往自已外面求救, 而不是察覺到只有你住在自已的心智系統裏面. 而亦因為只有你獨個一直住在裏面 - 只有你能夠協助自已. 然而, 因為人類沒有察覺在我們裏面的 "所有"這些思想, 幻聽和能量都是自已製造的, 而我們需要承擔負責的 - 我們常常往自已外面尋找答案, 希望其他人會(替我們)解決我們的問題; 然而在現實世界不可能和不是這樣運作的.
還有看一看, 長久以後, 這些思想, 聲音和能量只會變得越來越多, 越來越多而這個越來越嚴重除非你在裏面自已站起來並且不再投入它們並且改變 "你自已"!
還有, 如果你再細心看, 你對菩薩的怨恨,
指責這些在你心智系統裏面的思想/想念, 幻聽和能量永遠都是一模一樣的. 就和你以前對你師父的情形一樣, 因為你同樣捨棄了自已的力量, 卑微並且在你的心智系統裏,
把你的師父和菩薩比自已更高超, 反而沒有察覺在你裏面, 自已有能力栛助和支援自已. 所以,
你對菩薩的關係, 當你的心智系統把你自已的怨恨和指責投映在菩薩身上時
,相同的經歴就在你的心智系統裏面循環再現.
看看 - 我們的外世界(事件)實際是反映出我們裏面同時出現着的. 這是指, 例如 - 當体驗到對菩薩怨恨和指責, 事實上是顯示給你看你實際是對自已怨恨和指責. 而這同樣應用在世界上所有的人 - 所有我們体驗到對別人的思想/想法和能量, 事實上在揭露給我們看我們這些体驗是對自已的; 然而我們的心智系統(硬)把這些(反應)投映在別人身上好讓我們永遠察覺不出我們從來不是在体驗/感受別人而是感受着 "自已"!!! 我會為你而做, 我會透過自我宽恕的例子教你怎樣栛助和支援自已 "在別人身上查看自已", 意思是怎樣為你自已, 查看你與別人相處時你對別人的思想和能量, 事實上是在揭露給你看, 這些就是你對自已的想法和能量. 所以, 你與你身外的師父還有菩薩的關係和想法和能量, 事實在揭露給你看這些是你在(心)裏面對自已的關係 - 我們外在的關係反映我們內裏跟自已的關係.
*** 覺得自己大逆不道,毀謗佛法,是要下地獄的。然後開始出現幻覺有地獄的小鬼來,要我做大魔王。我不願意。因為做大魔王是要殺人的。我並不想。但是覺得自己越來越無法掌控自己,害怕自己哪天真的失控而傷害眾生。所以趁自己神智還清醒的時候,從我家的5樓陽台上跳下去,想要結束自己的生命。結果我並沒有死…
這裏也一樣, 當你繼續餵養你的心智系統, 參與你的思想和能量時, 這些幻覺變得越來越劇烈, 令心智系統越來越強大 - 你沒有察覺到這些心智裏的思想/想念和能量事實上是不會比你更強大的, 然而你反而把力量供應給心智系統. 你膨漲/令這些思想和能量比自已更強大因為你與自已的思想/想念和能量分離了, 沒有察覺出你這些思想和能量, 也就是你的心智系統, 其實是你的一部份 你沒有察覺出他們其實是你. 亦因為你沒有察覺出這些思想和能量是你, 你容許這些思想和能量掌握你的力量和凌駕控制了你. 而如果任由心智系統任意妄為 - 它會變成像有知覺並且控制我們到一個它在我們裏面完全接管所有一切的地步, 而我們完全會失去自已和身体的自控 - 就如你過往所經歴的一樣, 你的思想和能量, 即是心智系統不斷遊說你實行了結你自已的生命. 看 - 這些心智系統, 這些思想/想念和這些能量是極度脫離現實世界到它不可能重視生命, 因為它(本身)不是生命. 心智系統是由能量造成的 - 這些思想/想念和聲音也一樣.
如果我們繼續活在心智系統裏面, 我們會越來越與自已從物質現實裏脫離進入一個能量性虛假現實, 繼而相信這個心智系統現實世界是真的, 並且完全忘記 "我們" (活)在這個 "真正的物質現實世界". 死亡或結束你的生命 "不是解決方法". 只有
"你自已"是解決辨法.
在自已裏面為了自已.
我會教你的自我宽恕和寫作是你用來幫助你走出心智虛假能量性現實,
重回物質性現實的工具. 讓你可以感激自已, 感激生活和感激與自已一起在這裏(here), 並且讓自已變成在這個世界一個更豐富精彩的自已, 這一切你住在心智系統裏面是沒有可能得到的.
在 Desteni - 這是我們怎樣走的. 每一個人都用寫作和自我宽恕來栛助和支援自已察覺心智系統及所有這些思想/想念/想法, 暗聊和能量, 這些都是與我們分離了的一部份自已. 而我們唯一能夠清淨這些在我們裏面這團髒亂, 為這些分開了的自已即是心智系統負上責任, 並且在我們自已裏面, "尋回自我/(真正的)自已". 還有 - 自我宽恕和寫作的進程能夠協助和支援自已停止心智裏面的能量, 繼而停止在心智裏再製造幻像, 回到自已的物質身体裏並且活在一個我們抽離了的 "真實的世界". 除了寫作和自我宽恕, 我們還運用 "呼吸法". 讓你變得察覺自已與身体一起的呼吸而這樣會幫你不再脫離自已(住)在心智裏面 - 與你的身体, 與你自已回到這裏(here).
"解決辨法":
好的 - 我剛給你解釋過基本上你過往在你的心智系統裏面所面對的, 和我們怎樣在自已的心智裏製造出幻聽和幻覺. 所以 - 讓我們列出最重的幾點給你察覺:
1. 在我們心智系統裏的思想/想念, 幻聽/聲音, 能量和幻覺是與我們分開了的一部份.
2. 對別人的思想/想念,
幻聽/聲音, 能量和幻覺事實上是在告訴/揭露我們與自已的關係的性質.
3. 我們一直透過相信我們的心智比自已是更強大的 - 給心智系統, 即是這些思想, 聲音, 能量和幻覺輸送力量, 而令我們對自已改變自已變得無力.
4. 察覺我們透過取回自我-力量並且不再投入在心智系統即是思想, 幻聽,
幻覺和能量裏面, 我們有能力在自已裏面改變自已的.
5. 運用寫作, 自我宽恕和呼吸法這些工具來協助和支援我們不再活在心智系統的虛幻世界裏, 並且回到自已 回到我們的物質身体 活在一個真正現實, 活在一個我們現與它與自已脫離了的物質現實的世界, 因為我們在心智系統(世界)裏迷失了.
現在讓我們看看自我宽恕的原理和怎樣用我示範的自我宽恕例子來栛助自已:
首先讓我們看看: "什麼是自我宽恕"?
了解過什麼是自我宽恕後我們還會看看 "自我宽恕的原理".
自我宽恕是一個讓我們透過實踐(這些宽恕)來栛助和支援自已對自已的心智系統承擔責任的工具. 透過應用自我宽恕, 它會協助和支援自已去察覺你過往怎樣從你的思想, 聲音, 能量和幻覺裏分離了, 並且為察覺了後, 停止這些分離和取回你的自我-力量. 可以說, 就像所有這些思想/想念, 聲音, 能量和幻覺就像一塊塊的比薩餅而我們一直像一個比薩餅分散成所有零碎的比薩餅, 在我們裏面滿佈這些比薩餅. 自我宽恕協助和支援我們把所有這些(也是我們)的比薩餅, 把我們在自已裏面重新放回原位.
所以 - 自我宽恕同時是一個在心智系統的迷失空間裏 "尋找自已"的進程. 自我宽恕還協助和支援我們看到我們是有能力制止並在自已裏面改變自已的, 透過下定 "決心"要改變然後實踐. 自我宽恕還會協助和支援我們看到, 我們需要怎樣為自已亦是我們的心智系統負起責任, 在明白我們在自已裏面唯一可以改變自已的方法就只有透過 "我們親自實踐".
要明白
- 這會是一個進程. 我們正在面對這個心智系統,
是沒有 "馬上復元的神奇療法". 你需要適應 "完全另一種的生活方式",
在每一天裏這是一個身体力行在寫作, 自我宽恕和呼吸的進程. 再次把所有在你裏面零零碎碎的比薩餅重新回歸一体. 就如你到目前為止已經察覺到, 只是往外面尋找快捷的解決辨法結果是: 現實不是這樣運作的.
幫助自已的進程是需要耐性和恒心並且察覺你在為自已而做下去. 而且, 把拼圖重新拼好是需要時間, 集中力, 專注力的
- 有時候你會做錯, 不過過後就站起來再嘗試一次. 你要走的進程也會一樣.
所以 - 讓我們看看自我宽恕是怎樣做的:
讓我們用比如在這幾點裏最重要察覺的是從中察覺你有能力取回自已的力量並且不再參與投入在心智系統裏, 透過察覺到你必須要在自已裏面站起來. 要做到這點,
一個人需要這樣做自我-宽恕:
我宽恕自已接受和容許自已與我的心智系統分離了, 沒有察覺到我的心智其實就是我.
我宽恕自已接受和容許自已與我的思想/想念分離了, 而在這分離裏我沒有察覺出我的思想其實就是我而我是有能力制止和改變我自已亦改變我的思想.
我宽恕自已接受和容許自已與能量分離了,
沒有察覺到這些能量只有當我越來越不斷參與投入這些在我心智系統裏的思想和聲音,才會在心智裏產生越來越強大的能量.
我宽恕自已接受和容許自已相信這些在我腦海裏的聲音是從某人/某處發出來的, 沒有察覺這些是我很久以前長時間參與思想和能量產生出來的, 而因此這些聲音不是個別分離的, 是我製造這些聲音出來的.
而如果我可以製造它們出來 - 我就可以制止它們.
我宽恕自已接受和容許自已相信心智系統比我更強大, 而沒有察覺出這個心智系統就是我自已, 和如果心智系統就是我 -
我就可以制止和改變心智系統 改變我.
我宽恕自已接受和容許自已把自已的力量下放給這些心智系統, 思想, 聲音, 能量, 幻覺而這樣自已與自已分開成破破碎碎的破片, 在自已的心智系統裏迷失了自已.
好的, 所以這些就是一些關於我們與自已也就是心智系統分離了的關係的自我宽恕例子, 而在這分離裏, 令我們的心智系統比我們自已更強大. 透過察覺到心智系統是我們自已的一部份 - 我們就有能力協助和支援自已停止並且改變自已改變心智.
"為什麼一定要用自我宽恕!!?"
就如字裏所說
- 我們用的字 "我宽恕自已接受和容許自已.." 說自我宽恕就像 -
"對自已說對不起", 不過以一種深層和親密的方式來說. 為自已從自已裏面分離了出去, 為沒有察覺你事實上是可以自救的, 為令自已的人生變得如此坎坷, 為對自已的苛刻,
為沒有幫助自已而對自已說對不起. 而透過這自我宽恕 "對自已說對不起" 你就會從你的過去中釋放自已, 好讓你可以為自已在你裏面創造一個新的未來. 透過自我宽恕,
你拋開在你心智系統裏以往的重擔, 這些不斷像鬼魂般纏繞着你, 並且釋放自已重獲自由, 取回你的力量,
為自已改變自已. 讓我們看看 "接受和容許":
"接受" 是說我們過往怎樣接受/默許在心智系統裏時的一切, 接受我們繼續奴役自已在心智裏, 接受在心智裏迷失成為所有這些破碎的比薩餅. 接受我們過往容許所有令我們不肯改變自已的一切事, 因為 - 因為你 "接受"自已變成所有這些碎片, 因為你這樣接受自已繼而奴役自已永遠都處於迷失中, 並且最終變成這些你接受的而且活這些你所接受 - 接受你永遠這樣迷失下去. 因此我們在自我宽恕句子裏加進 "我宽恕自已 接受!" 因為這樣會栛助和支援你停止再接受, 比如你永遠迷失下去, 並且栛助你改變這項接受成為一種察覺, 察覺出你有能力制止這些你所接受並且 "改變你自已"! 所以 - 當你不再接受自已變成 "在心智系裏迷失"時, 你跟着察覺你有能力制止這種迷失狀態並且再一次尋回自我!
而 "容許" 是我們過往怎樣容許自已一直在心智系統裏迷失下去, 一直甘於乏力. 容許, 這就像在說: "我什麼也不能做, 我改變不了自已, 我迷失/迷困了, 我乏力因此我永遠都是這樣的了". 所以 - 容許就像, 一直繼續以這些破碎/失落的比薩餅存在下去, 並且什麼也不嘗試/做去改變現況, 而繼續現在的模樣和迷失下去. 容許我們把自已的力量下放給心智系統, 透過 "容許"它並且"不去改變"它. 因此我們在自我宽恕句子裏加進 "我宽恕自已接受和容許!.." 因為這樣給我們一個機會, 停止這些 "容許" 這些每個人現時的奴役狀態並且察覺我們有能力取回 "自已的力量!" 和 "改變!"
所以 - 這些在自我宽恕裏的字句是用來栛助和支援自已停止接受的也就是奴役, 容許也就是下放自已的力量給心智系統和有這些零零碎碎自我, 把自已也就是這些比薩餅重新回歸的關鍵.
另一個在你進程中協助你的工具是: 呼吸法. 集中注意力與你的身体一起呼吸, 當心智系統暴走和這些想念, 聲音和幻覺壓倒你的時候, 吸入和呼出會幫助你, "把自已帶回現實中" 即是在物質身体裏. 你與物質身体一起呼吸會幫助你把心智系統靜下來, 讓你在自已裏面變得更穏. 所以 - 當你為自已走這個走出心智現實回到自已的進程, 幫助自已 "與身体一起呼吸!", 集中注意力在呼吸裏時. 你會發覺當你越不斷練習時, 這就會變得越來越容易停止參與在心智系統, 這些思想, 聲音和能量中.(Fred: 這我可以做證. 我已連續不停用呼吸法有三年半了, 現在已差不多不用數四下也無時無刻在輕鬆自動的做停氣呼吸.) 所以當你同時做你的自我宽恕, 和過你的日常生活 - 做日常事務時, 你可以同時專注在你的呼吸裏, 或當心智變得太劇烈或太忙碌時, 那時你只需要獨個兒坐下來一會, 深而且慢的吸呼, 吸入然後呼出直至你感到你的心智在慢慢靜來, 而且越來越靜. 而你就這樣栛助自已不再令心智系統過度活躍和壓倒你.
好的 - 我在這裏給你解釋過基本的技巧, 你過往經歴的是什麼一回事, 什麼是自我宽恕, 要怎樣運用, 為什麼會有效還有你能夠怎樣用呼吸法幫助自已. 現在是看 "你!"了. 如果你下定決心取回自已的力量和幫助自已,我們可以為你提供協助和支援, 好讓你能夠協助和支援自已. (翻譯: Fred cheung)
原文:
With Original English draft:
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What you have experienced throughout your life is how the mind of all human beings work. You have experienced your mind more extensively than most human beings, however there are many humans out there that have/have had the exact same or similar experiences.
I will within this document explain to you what happened in your mind, how it happened and why it happened. Also the solutions to assist and support yourself with.
Let’s begin with having a look at some main points:
Quote: “At the beginning I was having disrespecting thoughts against a master, I began to blame and spite him. Then I began to felt like there was a rush of energy in my chest - an energy that I cannot control. Felt like I was a printer and the main computer is somewhere else, whoever at the back input my commands and they will projected into my thoughts automatically. I couldn't control myself.”
The disrespecting, blaming and spiting thoughts towards the ‘master’ comes from your own mind and is referred to as ‘backchat’ or ‘back talk’. This ‘backchat’ comes up automatically in the mind and comes from our own personalities. So, if one have backchat of disrespect, blame and spite towards another, it reveals actually something about ourselves we haven’t looked at. With having disrespect, blame and spite towards the ‘master’ show that you have disrespect, blame and spite towards yourself, but you have projected it onto the master. Our world and the people in it is in fact mirrors of ourselves. This means that, whatever you experience towards another, actually show what you are experiencing within yourself, towards yourself –it reveals your relationship with yourself. This is what all humans miss: that – whatever we think/feel inside ourselves actually come FROM OURSELVES. Whatever we think/feel about someone/something else – is actually what we think/feel ABOUT OURSELVES.
(I will later in this document show you how to – from what you think/feel about another, see how it is in fact showing what you think/feel about yourself.)
The thoughts we think, the talking as the backchat (backchat which is thoughts arranged in such a way that it creates an actual conversation in our own mind, so – all talking that happens in our own mind, we have created ourselves from our own thoughts) – so, the thoughts/backchat generate energy in our bodies, which you experienced in your chest. So – the energy you experienced came from the thoughts/conversations of thoughts you were having in your mind.
At the moment, the mind with the thoughts and energies is ‘automated’, because we have created the mind, the thoughts and the energies in separation from us. So, the mind, the thoughts and energies are actually parts of ourselves we’ve separated ourselves from and created a ‘consciousness’ for itself, that is at the moment ‘taken over’ our ability to direct ourselves, to live. That’s why it felt like you were ‘losing control’, because at the moment our minds, our own thoughts, our own energies have taken control, because we haven’t taken responsibility for them or even realised that they are actually ourselves. Because of this separation, we have ‘forgotten’ how we have programmed our own mind, our thoughts and our energies and so created the belief that the mind, the thoughts and the energies is something that we can’t control; but we actually can stop and direct it ourselves; you just need to know how (which is what I will show you as we continue).
Quote: “I thought my master was almighty, he should be able to help me resolve this, but he didn't/couldn't. I told him my problems and he just bow his head(in his meditation) and said nothing. I met him several times. He asked me what's the matter? I said I was very anxious. He mimic Wai Lin(慧能) the Chinese Grand Five Meditation (Buddhism) master's words: anxious? You show me your "heart/thoughts/mind", let me help you find peace. Master Wai Lin his wisdom through this but I didn't. I was just continuing my
anxious Life, through times as I visit him day in and day out, at the end I
couldn't find the answer and all I have is discouragement and lost.”
This is a point where all humans ‘become lost’ in where we try and find help ‘out there’ from others, when the solution is and always has been ourselves, within ourselves. The point that humans miss is that: we have created our own mind, our own thoughts and our energies and because of this: no-one else can really help us, but ourselves, because no-one else knows how our own mind works, because there’s no-one else inside you but YOU! No human being, not a normal human or even a master can help you with your own mind, because they are not in your mind – only you are. So – only you can help yourself, through understanding how you as the mind works and stand up inside yourself to direct your mind/thoughts/energies to not take control of you anymore. Everyone is always looking for solutions/help/answers outside of themselves, never finding help/solutions – because the REAL help/solutions is not ‘out there’, but inside self as self. So – I will later introduce you to self forgiveness and writing, which is tools which will help you to direct yourself in your mind, thoughts and energies to not have them control you anymore, but where you stand-up and make a decision to change. No-one else can stop our mind, thoughts and energies for us – only we can do it for ourselves, because the mind, thoughts and energies is ourselves, is our own creation that we have to take responsibility for.
Quote: “I began to suspect was this negative energy originate/related to him. Because he has super power(e.g. Channeling/supernatural/could know other people's past/secrets inside their mind), he knew I disrespect him, he knew I discontented with him, so he hated me. As long as he use a thought then I would feel sick.”
Here is another example of how, what goes on in our own mind – we project onto others, but it’s in fact ourselves experiencing ourselves and not another human being. The mind is interesting system, it can talk yourself into believing that, for example the ‘negative energies’ is coming from another person; but we are really creating it inside ourselves through our own thoughts/back talk/conversations in our head. So – the negative energies are not really coming from another human being, but is in fact coming from inside ourselves, through the thoughts we are thinking/conversations in our head we are having.
So, here – the ‘negative energy’ you were having towards the master, was really your own negative energy that you experienced inside yourself, that you created yourself through the thoughts/conversations you had in your mind. The mind can create positive and negative energies inside ourselves, which is create based on the nature of the thoughts we are having. So – if you accept and allow negative thoughts inside you, you will create negative energy, if you accept and allow positive thoughts inside you – you create positive energy. Both positive and negative thoughts and energies come from our mind and separate us from our human physical bodies to not be here in actual reality. So, the mind – with following our thoughts and energies; separate us from being here with our bodies, and is thus very easy to lose ourselves in our mind, because it’s a very confusing place – as you have experienced for yourself. So – with self forgiveness and writing, which I will explain later how it works; you will be able to help yourself with getting out of the lostness in the mind, and become stable in your physical body and bring yourself back to reality. And so stop the confusion and lostness and be stable here. This will be a process to walk; but as you have already experienced for yourself – no-one else can help you; there is no ‘quick fix’; you have to and can only help yourself; and there are many that will assist and support you in showing you how to use the tools of writing and self forgiveness. But the actual walking and application of the tools, the actual DOING of it – only you can do for you.
Understand, that – the thoughts you had of the master being ‘supernatural’ was a belief that you created in your own mind. If human beings were really supernatural – this world would’ve already been a completely different place! Therefore, your relationship with your master was only a ‘belief’ that you created in your mind, with your own thinking and conversations you had in your mind, because you believed that he was ‘more powerful’ than you. But – no human being is ‘more powerful’ than another. All human beings have a mind with thoughts and energies. The only thing that makes others more powerful is our own ideas/beliefs we create about them in our own minds. So – with you believing that master was ‘more powerful’ in your own mind, you made yourself believe that ‘he must / can help you’; instead of realising that you have the power of yourself to be able to help yourself. See how beliefs separate us from ourselves and each other? How we make others ‘more powerful’ instead of realising we have the power as ourselves to help ourselves. So – this is what you must realise here: that – no master/guru – no matter how ‘powerful’ you believe they are, they cannot help you; because they are not in you/your mind: only you are and so only you can help yourself.
Therefore, here – it’s to let go of the belief that a master is ‘more powerful’ and assist and support yourself to take your own power that is yourself, and help yourself to direct the mind so that it doesn’t control you anymore: only you can do this for yourself – no-one else can (as you have experienced for yourself!).
Also, the disrespect, discontent and hate that you believed he was experiencing towards you – is actually revealing that you were experiencing that towards yourself. Remember, whatever we think inside ourselves – always come from ourselves.
The mind project ourselves onto others so that we don’t realise that it’s all actually coming from ourselves, but that we always then blame others for what we experience and so never realize that it’s in fact ourselves we are experiencing. And so many human beings get lost in their mind, because everything that’s coming from us is blames onto others, never realising we’re always experiencing ourselves and because we’re not realising this – we haven’t taken responsibility for our own minds, our own thoughts and our own energies; not realising that we ourselves are the problem.
So – this example here, where you believed the master was having disrespect, discontent and hate – is an example of how our mind project ourselves onto another. So, for example – the disrespect, discontent and hate, was actually coming from inside you, from you and so actually show what you experience towards yourself, inside yourself. That you were really feeling disrespect towards yourself, that you were really feeling discontent towards yourself and that you were really feeling hate towards yourself that you have projected onto your master to not see that it is actually you that you are feeling. And so, we lose ourselves in our minds, thinking we are feeling others, but all the while – we’re only feeling ourselves.
Quote: “Then I began to have illusions/voices in my mind -- my seniors scolding me. At first I didn't pay attention to these thoughts, but later I became impatience. I couldn't suppress myself and started spite, blame, argue. So I was talking to myself, I scolded myself, I talk to myself. I was getting more and more afraid day by day.”
How the mind works is as follows: the more and more we participate in our thoughts and energies, the more and more it becomes more intense to the point where thoughts and energies can transform into illusions and more voices.
What humans don’t realise is that – all the illusions, the voices in our heads, we’re actually creating ourselves through participating in our thoughts and energies. The more we participate in our thoughts and energies, the more we are ‘feeding our minds’ and so giving our power/responsibility away to the mind and then the mind starts becoming more and more powerful than us. So – that very relationship we have with our mind as the thoughts and energies where the mind becomes more powerful than us: we create through us not stopping our thoughts and energies and making a decision to live here in the breath with our bodies. So, the more and more we participate in the thoughts and energies, the more powerful the mind becomes and the more powerless we become. So – when illusions and more voices come up in the mind one must know: I have been feeding my mind more power, instead of me stopping my thoughts and energies. Therefore realise that, even illusions are self-created from thoughts and conversations and reactions we’ve had with ourselves in our own minds.
So – it’s time to take your self-power back and no more accept or allow yourself to give your self-power away to the mind. I’m going to assist and support you in showing you how to take your self-power back by walking writing and self forgiveness and how to stop participation in the thoughts and energies to no more feed the mind power, but take responsibility for you and assist and support you to live with your physical body and no more in the mind.
Quote: “I called my master, and every time he just answer me impatiencely. I was very frighten and couldn't explain to him what was going on with me. All I could do was crying. Then he angrily said: You didn't tell me what's the matter and what is such a big deal for keep crying! Then he hanged up. I thought he was almighty, he could know psychic-ly what was going on inside me. He seemed just treat me like a insane.”
So here you have realised for yourself that even ‘masters’ do not really in fact know the truth of what goes on in another’s mind: only you do. And, what you must also realise is that – no other being can help you, unless you help yourself. For example, I am giving you perspective of what happened with you and will show you how to help yourself with walking writing and self forgiveness, but you must take the first steps to stop the thoughts, voices and energies inside yourself with applying the tools of writing and self forgiveness – you will realise you can do it, and only you can do it. So – your ‘master’ could not help you, because your thoughts, voices and energies in your mind is what you created, and because you are the creator of your own mind – only you can change yourself inside yourself. Writing and self forgiveness will show you how to do this – to help yourself with your own mind as thoughts, voices and energies.
Quote: “I couldn't resolve it through my master, then I began to look for help in worshiping bodhisattva. To help calm down my thoughts. Because my thoughts were restless, and they are all negative. I was in deep pain but I couldn't find bodhisattva. My situation kept on deteriorate. More and more illusion, voices, blaming spiting Bodhisattva. Why didn't he response to my pleading for help? I spite bodhisattva but then I was in extreme fear and worry afterwards.”
Have a look here: You created the same relationship towards Bodhisattva as you did towards your previous master – looking for help outside of yourself, instead of realising that only you live inside yourself inside your own mind. And because only you are there inside yourself – only you can help yourself. But, because humans do not realise that ALL the thoughts, voices and energies inside us we create ourselves, and we’re responsible for – we tend to look for help outside of ourselves in wanting others to take away our problems; but in reality it cannot and does not work that way.
And have a look – over time, the thoughts, voices and energies just became more and more and more and this will happen and continue happening unless you stand up inside yourself and stop participation in them and change YOU!
And, if you have a look further, you had the same thoughts, voices and energies of spite, blame towards Bodhisattva as you did towards your previous master, because again you made yourself powerless, inferior and making your master and Bodhisattva more than you inside your mind, instead of realising your own ability to assist and support yourself inside yourself. So, the same experience re-played in your mind with your relationship towards Bodhisattva, where your mind projected your own experiences of spite and blame from yourself onto Bodhisattva.
See – our outside world reflect what is in fact happening inside ourselves. This means that, for example – experiencing spite and blame towards Bodhisattva, was showing that you were in fact experiencing spite and blame towards yourself. And this goes for all people in our world – whatever we experience in our thoughts and energies towards others, in fact reveal what we are experiencing towards ourselves; but our mind project it onto others so we don’t ever realise that we’re never experiencing anyone else but OURSELVES!!! I will show you in the self forgiveness examples I will do for you how to assist and support yourself with ‘seeing yourself in others’, meaning how to investigate, for yourself, the thoughts and energies you have towards others, is in fact showing you that it’s the thoughts and energies you have towards yourself. So, your relationship with your master and Bodhisattva outside of yourself, was showing the relationship you were having with you inside yourself – our outside relationships reflect our inside relationship with ourselves.
Quote: “I fear I'd go to hell because of my daring to spite bodhisattva. Then I have illusions of demons from hell come and want to throne me as a devil. I didn't want to because that would imply I have to kill people. I didn't want to but I felt I was getting more and more difficult to control myself. I feared that one day I would (listen to my thoughts/voices) and actually go harm people out there. So when I still have consciousness, I jumped from my home's 5th floor balcony wanted to end my life. But I didn't die……
Here again the illusions became more, the more and more and more you continued to feed your mind with continuing participating in the thoughts and energies, making the mind more powerful – giving the mind your power, instead of realising that the thoughts and energies of the mind is not in fact more powerful than you. You have made your thoughts and energies more powerful because you have separated yourself from your own thoughts and energies, not realising that your thoughts and energies as the mind is parts of you you haven’t realised is in fact you. And because you haven’t realised that the thoughts and energies are you, you have let the thoughts and energies have power and control over you. And if the mind is left undirected – it can take a life of its own and control us to the extent where it completely takes over everything inside ourselves and we completely lose control of ourselves and our physical bodies – as you have experienced where your thoughts and energies as the mind talked you into ending your own life. See – the mind, the thoughts and the energies are so separate from real reality that it cannot value life, because it is not life. The mind is made from energy – so is the thoughts and the voices.
And if we continue living in the mind, we more and more and more separate ourselves from the real physical reality into an illusionary energy reality and then later on believe that the mind reality is real and completely forget about OURSELVES and this REAL PHYSICAL REALITY. Dying or ending your life is NOT THE SOLUTION. Only YOU are the solution to yourself inside yourself. The self forgiveness and writing I will show you is the tools you use to help you get out of your mind illusion reality of energy back into the actual physical reality so that you can start appreciating you, appreciating living and appreciating being here with yourself and make / become something more of yourself in this world than you ever could have in the mind.
At Desteni – this is what we are walking. Each being walking the process of writing and self forgiveness is assisting and supporting themselves in realising that the mind with all the thoughts, backchats and energies is parts of self we have separated ourselves from. And the only way we are going to clean up the mess inside ourselves in taking responsibility for the separation of ourselves as the mind and ‘find ourselves’ again inside ourselves. Also – the process of self forgiveness and writing assist and support self with stopping participation in the energy of the mind, and so stop creating illusions in the mind to come back here into one’s own physical body and live here in the ‘real world’ that we have separated ourselves from. With writing and self forgiveness one also assist and support oneself with BREATHING. To become aware of your breathing with your body as this will help you to not separate yourself in the mind, in the illusions and energy – but be here in the physical with your body, with yourself.
SOLUTION:
Okay –
I have now explained to you the basics of what you have faced in your own mind
and how we create voices and illusions in our own mind. So – let us list the
most important points for you to realise:
1.
Thoughts, voices, energies and illusions is parts of ourselves in our own mind
we have separated ourselves from.
2.
Thoughts, voices, energies and illusions we experiences towards others is in
fact showing/revealing the nature of the relationship we have with
ourselves.
3. We have been giving our mind as the thoughts, voices, energies and illusions our power through believing that our mind is more powerful than us, and in that making ourself powerless towards ourselves to change ourselves.
4. To realise that we have the ability to change ourselves inside ourselves through taking back our self power and stopping participation in the mind as the thoughts, voices, illusions and energies.
5. With the tools of writing, self forgiveness and breathing one can assist and support oneself to stop living in the illusions of the mind, and come back to self in one’s own physical body into the real reality that is this physical world we have separated ourselves from as we have lost ourselves in the mind.
Now we will have a look at how self forgiveness works and how to assist and support yourself with self forgiveness with examples I will show you:
First let’s have a look at: WHAT IS SELF FORGIVENESS?
With
having a look at what is self forgiveness we will also look at HOW SELF
FORGIVENESS WORKS.
Self-Forgiveness is a tool that one live to assist and support self to take responsibility for one’s mind. With applying self forgiveness, this will assist and support self to realise how you have separated yourselves from your thoughts, voices, energies and illusions and to within that realisation, stop the separation and take back your self-power. One can say, for example that all the thoughts, voices, energies and illusions are like puzzle pieces and we’ve been living like a puzzle in pieces with all the pieces lying all of the place inside ourselves. Self forgiveness assist and support self to take all those pieces of our puzzle as ourselves and put ourselves back together again inside ourselves.
So –
self forgiveness is also the process of ‘finding yourself’ in the lost ness of
the mind. Self forgiveness also assist and support us to realise that we have
the ability to stop and change ourselves inside ourselves, through making the
DECISION to change and to then actually do it. Self forgiveness also assist and
support us to realise how we require taking responsibility for ourselves as our
mind in realising that we’re only going to change ourselves inside ourselves if
WE DO IT OURSELVES.
Realise, that – this is going to be a process. There is no ‘magical quick-fix cure’ for what we face as our mind. This is a ‘different way of life’ that you have to adopt, where every day it’s a process of walking writing, self forgiveness and breathing to put all the pieces of the puzzle inside yourself back together again. As you have realise for yourself throughout your life thus far, looking for help outside yourself and instantly wanting to fix yourself: this is not how it works. This process of helping yourself is going to take patience and discipline and realising that you are doing this for you. And, putting a puzzle back together again times time, focus, attention – sometimes you make mistakes, but then try again and stand up. This process you will be walking will be the same.
So – let us have a look at how self forgiveness is done:
Let us
take for example the primary point to realise within all of this is realising
that you can take back your own self-power and stop participation in the mind
through realising that you have to stand up inside yourself. To get to this
realisation, one walk self forgiveness as follows:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my mind, not realising that my mind is me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my thoughts, and in that separation didn’t realise that my thoughts are me and that I have the ability to stop and change myself as my thoughts.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from
the energies, not realising that the energies are only becoming more and more
and more intense the more and more and more I continue participating in the
thoughts and voices that create the energies in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the voices in my head is coming from somewhere else, not realising that the voices is what I created over a long period of time of participating in thinking and energies and so the voices is not separate from me, I created the voices. And if I created the voices – I can stop them.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the mind
has more power than me, instead of realising the mind is me and if the mind is
me – I can stop and change the mind as me.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my self-power
away to the mind, the thoughts, the voices, the energies, the illusions and in
this separating me from myself into lots of different pieces losing myself in my
mind.
Okay, so here are some self forgiveness examples in looking at the relationship we’ve created with ourselves as the mind in separation and in that separation, made the mind more than ourselves. In realising that the mind is parts of ourselves, as pieces of ourselves – we have the ability to assist and support ourselves to stop and change ourselves as the mind.
WHY IS SELF FORGIVENESS NECESSARY?
As you
can see in the statement – we use the words “I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself…”
Speaking self forgiveness is like – ‘saying sorry to yourself’, but in more deep and intimate way. Saying sorry to yourself for separating yourself from yourself, from not realising that you can actually help yourself, from making your life difficult for yourself, from being hard on yourself, from not helping yourself. And in this self forgiveness as ‘saying sorry to yourself’ you then release yourself / set yourself free from your past so that you can help yourself to create a new future for yourself inside yourself. Through self forgiveness, you let go of the burdens of the past in your mind that is haunting you, and set yourself free to take your power back to change yourself, for yourself.
The words “accept and allow” in the self forgiveness statement – let’s have a look at that:
“Acceptance” is how we have accepted our condition in the mind, acceptance is how we continued to enslave ourselves in the mind as being lost as all the pieces of the puzzle. Acceptance is the experience we have allowed that has stopped us from changing ourselves, because – because you ‘accept’ yourself as all the lost pieces, this acceptance then enslaves you to always being lost and eventually you become that acceptance and live that acceptance that you will always remain lost. Therefore we add in the self forgiveness statement “I forgive myself that I have ACCEPTED…” as this assist and support you to stop that acceptance of yourself of always being lost, for example and help you to change that acceptance to a realisation that you can stop the acceptance and CHANGE YOURSELF! So – when you stop accepting yourself as being ‘lost in the mind’ you then realise that you can stop the lostness and find yourself again!
Now “Allowance” is how we have allowed ourselves to continue existing as being lost in the mind, as being powerless. With allowance, it is like saying: “I can’t do anything to change myself, I am lost and powerless and therefore it will always be like this”. So – allowance is like, continuing to exist as the lost puzzle pieces and not doing anything to change it but continue living and being lost. Allowance is how we give our self-power away to the mind, by ALLOWING it and NOT CHANGING it. Therefore we add in the self forgiveness statement: “I forgive myself that I have accepted and ALLOWED…” as this gives one the opportunity to stop the ALLOWANCE as enslavement to one’s current condition and realise that one can take back one’s SELF-POWER and CHANGE.
So – the words in the statement of the self forgiveness is the keys to assisting and supporting self to stop the acceptance as enslavement and allowance as giving away our self-power to the mind and the pieces of ourselves to bring ourselves as the puzzle pieces back together again.
Another tool to help yourself in this process with is: BREATHING. To focus on your breathing with your body, the in-breath and the out-breath will help you in moments when the mind gets too much and the thoughts, voices and illusions become too overwhelming, to ‘bring yourself back to the real reality’ as the physical body. Your breathing with the physical body will help you quiet the mind so that you can become more stable with yourself inside yourself. So – as you are walking this process for yourself as walking out of the mind reality and coming back to yourself help yourself to BREATHE WITH YOUR BODY, to focus on your breathing. You will find the more you practise this, the more easier it will become to stop participation in the mind, the thoughts, the voices and the energies. So, as you are walking your self forgiveness, and walking throughout your day – doing your daily tasks, you can start focusing on your breathing, or when the mind gets too much or too busy, then all you do is sit down with yourself for a moment, and take deep slow breaths, in-breath and out-breath until you feel that the mind is quieting more and more and more and so you help yourself to stop making the mind so busy and overwhelming.
Alright – here I have now explained to you the basics, what’s happened to you, what self forgiveness is, how it done, why it is done and also how you can help yourself with Breathing. Now it is up to YOU. If you make the decision to take back your self-power and help yourself, we can assist and support you for you to be able to assist and support yourself.
這是Sunette回覆給一位存有的信件,內容提到人類的心智系統是如何的運作以及運用寫作、自我寬恕和呼吸來協助/支援自己來停止心智系統的能量。還有提到為何要使用寬恕以及寬恕的原理,解釋得非常詳細、非常清楚。信件內容如下:
你人生所經歴的所有人類一樣心智系統(mind)的運作是一樣的. 你比大部份人類体驗到心智的幅度更加(極度)的強烈, 然而世界上有很多人仍然/曾經有(和你同樣)程度或類似的体驗.
讓我們開始看一看這幾點:
*** 在我20歲時跟隨著父母親參加了佛教,也跟隨著出家師父舉辦過兒童夏令營。那是一段開心的日子。後來跟著另一個老師學習佛法。一開始起了一個對老師不恭敬的念頭,心中開始悔恨交加。然後胸口常有一股能量,自己一直控制不住的能量,常覺得自己像一台印表機,主機在別的地方,別人輸入甚麼在我的腦海中就出現甚麼。我一直無法掌控自己。
對這個 "大師"的不敬, 指責 和怨恨思想來自你自已的心智系統, 並且稱為 "暗聊back chat)". 這種暗聊有時來自心智系統裏自動出現, 也有源自我們的性格. 所以, 如果一個人對另一個人(在裏面)有這些不敬, 指責和怨恨的暗聊 它事實在給我們揭露自已沒有留意重點. 透過你對這 "大師"的不敬, 指責和怨恨顯示你對自已不敬, 指責和怨恨自已, 然而你把它往外投射在這大師身上. 我們的外世界和遇到的人其實是我們自已的本質寫照. 意思是, 你(針)對任何/另一個人的感受/体驗, 事實上在給你揭露/顯示你自已裏面(一直抑壓/無視)怎樣体驗着自已, 怎樣對待自已 - 這些給你揭露你怎對待自已(與自已的關係). 所有人類都看不出這點: 這 - 一切我們在自已裏面所感受/所想的事實上全都 "源自我們自已". 所有我們對某人/其他人/某物某事的感受/所想 - 事實上就是我們對自已(作出)的感受/所想.
(我遲些在文章後面會教你怎樣 - 從你對其他人的感受/想法, 怎樣看出實際上它在告訢給你看你在怎樣對待/感受你自已的.)
我們思想的想念/想法, 這些稱為暗聊的對話(暗聊一些被處理過的想法, 以一種在我們自已心智系統裏形成真實對話形式的思想, 所以 - 所有在我們自已心智系統世界裏的談話, 都是我們從/透過自已的想念/想法製造出來的) - 所以, 這些想念/想法/暗聊(能夠)在我們身体裏(抽取)產生能量, 就是你過往在胸口所体驗的. 所以 - 這些你感受到的能量源自你在你心智系統裏面(對自已)的想念/想法.
*** 我一直認為我的老師神通廣大,應該可以解決我的問題,但是並沒有。我跟他說我的問題,他只是低頭不語,甚麼話也沒有說。我去找他好幾次,他問我有什麼問題?我說我心很不安。他學著中國禪宗五祖大師對六祖慧能說:「心不安?你把心拿來,我幫你安。」
這點正是所有人類 "都會迷失"的 - 當我們嘗試往 "外面", 向其他人求救, 當解決辨法永遠都在我們自已裏面. 人類錯在: 是我們製造我們自已的心智系統, 我們自已的想念/想法和我們的能量亦因為這點: 事實上, 沒有人任何人知道我們自已的心智系統是怎樣運作的, 因為在你裏面就只有 "你自已"一個在心智裏面! 沒有任何人, 不管是正常人或甚至一個大師能夠幫你應付你的心智系統, 因為他們不是住在你的心智裏面的 - 只有你自已是. 所以 - 只有你自已才能救助自已, 透過了解你作為一個心智系統是怎樣運作的, 並且在你自已裏面站起來指揮你的心智系統/想念/想法/能量, 你不再被這些控制着. 每一個人永遠都往自已外面尋找解決辨法/栛助/答案, 從來沒有往 - 因為 "真正"的栛助/解決辨法不是往外面找的, 不在 "外面", 而是在自已裏面, 是你自已. 所以 - 我會往後教你自我-宽恕和寫作, 都是一些會栛助你在/處於你心智系統, 想念/想法和能量裏面時指揮自已, 不再令自已受它們的控制, 而是你站起來決定要改變自已(的地方). 沒有任何人可以替你制止你的心智系統, 想念/想法和能量 - 只有我們自已才能夠為自已做到, 因為這些心智系統, 思想/想法和能量都是自已, 是我們親手製造出來的, 我們要為此負上自我責任.
*** 我開始懷疑我心中的負面能量是否跟他有關,因為他有神通,他知道我對他的不滿,我對他的不恭敬。所以他討厭我,只要他一個念頭我就會不舒服.
這是另一個, 我們在心智系統裏面的範例 - 我們投映在別人身上, 但事實上這些是我們在自已裏面体驗着自已而不關其他人事的. 心智系統是一個有趣的系統, 它能夠一直說服你進入相信, 例如這些 "負能量" 是源自別人發出的; 然而事實上我們自已在自已裏面, 透過自已的思想, 產生這些能量的. 透過這些在我們腦裏面不斷想/與自已的對話, 的想念生產出來.
所以, 在這裏 - 這些你對這大師的 "負能量", 實際上是你在自已裏面對自已所体驗(感受)到的負能量, 是你透過你在心智系統裏面的思想/自我交談自已製造出來的. 心智系統在我們裏面可以同時製造正能量和負能量的, 這此都是透過我們思想/想念的性質製造出來的. 所以 - 如果你接受和容許你裏面有負面的想念/想法, 你就會造出負能量, 如果你接受和容許正面的想念, 你就會造出正能量. 所有這些正和負面的想念/想法與能量同時源自我們的心智系統並且把我們從物質性身体分開了 - 不再每一刻都處於(活在)是這裏(Here)在真實世界中. 所以, 心智系統 - 當我們讓思想和能量牽着鼻子走; 把我們從本來是與身体一体在是 "這裏/當下"(here)的, 而因此導至我們極容易陷入自已的心智系統裏面, 因為它是一個極混亂和容易迷失的地方 - 就如你過往已經所体驗過的一樣. 所以 - 運用自我寬恕和自我寫作, 這些我在後面都會逐一解釋它們的運作原理; 你能夠幫助/引領自已走出已陷入了自已在心智系統裏面的迷失狀態, 並且變回在身体裏面穩定下來, 把自已帶回現實(環境)中. 並透過這樣終止你裏面的的混亂和迷失狀態回復是 "這裏". 對你會是一個進程; 但一如你過往所体驗過的一樣 - 沒有任何人可以幫到你的; 這問題不會有 "輕鬆快捷的解決方法"; 你必須要和只能夠自救; 而將會有很多人透過給你看怎樣運用這些自我宽恕和自我寫作的工具, 來栛助和支援你. 然而真正走每一步和應用這些工具, 真正不斷下功夫去 "行動/做"的 - 只有你能夠為自已栛助自已.
明白, 這些 - 你覺得這大師擁有 "超自然"力量是一道你在自已心智系統裏面製造的信念. 如果人類真的擁有超自然力量 - 這個世界早就已經變成一個徹㡳不會像今天的世界! 因此, 你跟你的師父的關係只是一道你在心智系統裏面, 透過你自已的思想/想法和你在心智系統腦裏的交談製造出來的 "信念", 因為你相信他比你 "更高超". 然而 - 沒有一個人類是比其他人 "更高超"的. 所有人類都有一個心智系統, 思想/想念和能量. 唯一令某些人更強大是我們對他們, 自已在心智系統裏產生/相信這些信念. 所以 - 當你在心智系統裏相信禪師是比你自已 "更高超", 你令自已相信 "他必定/有能力幫助你"; 而不是察覺到我們自已就是力量本身可以幫助自已. 所以 - 你必需要察覺這點: 世上沒有大師 - 不管你有多相信他們有 "多高超", 他們幫不了你的; 因為他們不是(住)在你/你的心智系統裏面: 只有你自已是, 因此只有你自已能栛助自已.
所以, 在這裏 - 重點是拋開你對大師比你 "更高超" 並且栛助和支援你自已這天生的力量, 就是你自已, 並且栛助自已指揮心智系統令它不再控制着你: 只有你能夠幫助自已完成這使命 - 世上沒有人可以替你做(就如你過往已經歴過的一樣!).還有, 這些你相信他對你不敬, 不滿意和憤恨(你) - 實際上在揭露給你看你在怎樣對待你自已. 記着, 所有我們在心裏面想的 - 永遠都從自我們自已裏面產生出來的.心智系統把我們(的投映在別人身上好讓我們不會察覺到這一切原來實際上是發自我們自已的, 然而我們永遠都把我們心裏面体驗到的, 只埋怨在對方身上因此永遠不會察覺到這事實上我們永遠都在自已在裏面感受/体驗着的是自已, 並且因為我們沒有察覺這點 - 我們沒有對自已的心智系統, 自已的思想/想念和我們自已的能量承擔責任; 沒有察覺出我們自已本身就是問題的根源.
所以 - 在這個例子中, 當你覺得這大師在對你不敬, 不滿和憤恨 - 就是一個我們的心智系統怎樣投映自已在別人身上的例子. 所以, 例如 - 這些不敬, 不滿和憤恨, 事實上是從你自已裏面洐生出來的, 並且準確的顯示給你看你在自已裏面, 怎樣体驗/對待自已. 是你事實上對你自已不敬, 是你對自已不滿和事實上是你對自已把這些投射在你的師父身上好讓你不用看出這些, 事實上是你在對你自已的感覺而感到憤恨. 因此, 我們在自已的心智系統裏面迷失了, 相信我們有的是對其他人的感受, 然而同時間一直以來 - 我們只是在感受着的是自已.
*** 然後我開始出現幻聽,出現一些學長咒罵我的聲音,本來想不要理會這個聲音。但是時間久了,也開始覺得不耐煩,忍不住要辯駁、抱怨、要回罵回去。結果就是自己在自己的腦海中不斷的編織故事。然後自己給自己回應。自己罵自己。對於自己這樣的現象,只有越來恐慌、越來越害怕。
心智系統是這樣運作的: 當我們越參與投入我們的思想/想念和能量時, 它就會變得越來越猛烈最終附強到一個思想/想念和能量能夠轉化成幻覺和更多的幻聽.
所以 - 現在是你重新取回你的自我-力量並且不再接受或容許自已把自我-力量下放給心智系統. 我會協助和支援你透過教你怎樣用寫作和自我-宽恕來, 和怎樣停止參與思想/想念和能量. 令自已不再餵養心智系統的食糧, 並且為自已取回你的自我-力量, 栛助和支援自已活在你的物質身体裏面而不是活在心智系統裏.
*** 一直打電話給老師,每次他都不耐煩的問我甚麼事?我越來越驚恐也越說不出來是怎麼回事。只會哭。然後他很不高興的說:「問你甚麼事也不講,只是哭有甚麼好哭的。」就掛電話。我以為他神通廣大,可以知道我發生了甚麼事情?但是我想我搞錯了。他應該是把我當成瘋子一樣的看待吧!
這裏你察覺到甚至 "大師"們事實上完全不知道其他人心智系統裏面發生什麼事的: 只有你最清楚. 並且, 你還需要察覺 - 沒有人可以幫助你的, 除非你自救. 例如, 我正在對你的過往經歴給你一些看法, 並且教你怎樣用寫作和自我宽恕逐步的栛助自已, 然而第一步你必須透過寫作和自我宽恕, 制止這些在你心智腦海的思想/想法, 幻聽和能量 - 你會察覺你能夠做到的, 並且世上只有你能夠做到. 所以 - 你的 "師父"幫不了你, 因為這些在你心智系統裏的思想/想念, 幻聽和能量都是製造出來的, 而因為你是你心智系統裏面的總設計師 - 只有你在自已裏面可以改變自已. 寫作和自我宽恕能夠令你/你帶領自已一步一步完成 - 利用你自已的心智系統即是思想, 幻聽和能量來栛助自已.
*** 在老師這得不到解決的辦法。我開始希望佛菩薩可以幫忙。可以讓我的念頭停下來。因為我的念頭一直無法停止,而且全是負面的念頭,讓我痛苦萬分。但是我也找不到佛菩薩。我的狀況一直持續惡化當中,出現更多的幻聽、幻覺。對佛菩薩有更多的抱怨。為何我苦苦哀求,他都不來救我,我在心中咒罵著佛菩薩。然後又覺得驚恐萬分
這裏看一看: 你對菩薩建立了與你以前的師父一樣的關係 - 往自已外面求救, 而不是察覺到只有你住在自已的心智系統裏面. 而亦因為只有你獨個一直住在裏面 - 只有你能夠協助自已. 然而, 因為人類沒有察覺在我們裏面的 "所有"這些思想, 幻聽和能量都是自已製造的, 而我們需要承擔負責的 - 我們常常往自已外面尋找答案, 希望其他人會(替我們)解決我們的問題; 然而在現實世界不可能和不是這樣運作的.
還有看一看, 長久以後, 這些思想, 聲音和能量只會變得越來越多, 越來越多而這個越來越嚴重除非你在裏面自已站起來並且不再投入它們並且改變 "你自已"!
看看 - 我們的外世界(事件)實際是反映出我們裏面同時出現着的. 這是指, 例如 - 當体驗到對菩薩怨恨和指責, 事實上是顯示給你看你實際是對自已怨恨和指責. 而這同樣應用在世界上所有的人 - 所有我們体驗到對別人的思想/想法和能量, 事實上在揭露給我們看我們這些体驗是對自已的; 然而我們的心智系統(硬)把這些(反應)投映在別人身上好讓我們永遠察覺不出我們從來不是在体驗/感受別人而是感受着 "自已"!!! 我會為你而做, 我會透過自我宽恕的例子教你怎樣栛助和支援自已 "在別人身上查看自已", 意思是怎樣為你自已, 查看你與別人相處時你對別人的思想和能量, 事實上是在揭露給你看, 這些就是你對自已的想法和能量. 所以, 你與你身外的師父還有菩薩的關係和想法和能量, 事實在揭露給你看這些是你在(心)裏面對自已的關係 - 我們外在的關係反映我們內裏跟自已的關係.
*** 覺得自己大逆不道,毀謗佛法,是要下地獄的。然後開始出現幻覺有地獄的小鬼來,要我做大魔王。我不願意。因為做大魔王是要殺人的。我並不想。但是覺得自己越來越無法掌控自己,害怕自己哪天真的失控而傷害眾生。所以趁自己神智還清醒的時候,從我家的5樓陽台上跳下去,想要結束自己的生命。結果我並沒有死…
這裏也一樣, 當你繼續餵養你的心智系統, 參與你的思想和能量時, 這些幻覺變得越來越劇烈, 令心智系統越來越強大 - 你沒有察覺到這些心智裏的思想/想念和能量事實上是不會比你更強大的, 然而你反而把力量供應給心智系統. 你膨漲/令這些思想和能量比自已更強大因為你與自已的思想/想念和能量分離了, 沒有察覺出你這些思想和能量, 也就是你的心智系統, 其實是你的一部份 你沒有察覺出他們其實是你. 亦因為你沒有察覺出這些思想和能量是你, 你容許這些思想和能量掌握你的力量和凌駕控制了你. 而如果任由心智系統任意妄為 - 它會變成像有知覺並且控制我們到一個它在我們裏面完全接管所有一切的地步, 而我們完全會失去自已和身体的自控 - 就如你過往所經歴的一樣, 你的思想和能量, 即是心智系統不斷遊說你實行了結你自已的生命. 看 - 這些心智系統, 這些思想/想念和這些能量是極度脫離現實世界到它不可能重視生命, 因為它(本身)不是生命. 心智系統是由能量造成的 - 這些思想/想念和聲音也一樣.
如果我們繼續活在心智系統裏面, 我們會越來越與自已從物質現實裏脫離進入一個能量性虛假現實, 繼而相信這個心智系統現實世界是真的, 並且完全忘記 "我們" (活)在這個 "真正的物質現實世界".
在 Desteni - 這是我們怎樣走的. 每一個人都用寫作和自我宽恕來栛助和支援自已察覺心智系統及所有這些思想/想念/想法, 暗聊和能量, 這些都是與我們分離了的一部份自已. 而我們唯一能夠清淨這些在我們裏面這團髒亂, 為這些分開了的自已即是心智系統負上責任, 並且在我們自已裏面, "尋回自我/(真正的)自已". 還有 - 自我宽恕和寫作的進程能夠協助和支援自已停止心智裏面的能量, 繼而停止在心智裏再製造幻像, 回到自已的物質身体裏並且活在一個我們抽離了的 "真實的世界". 除了寫作和自我宽恕, 我們還運用 "呼吸法". 讓你變得察覺自已與身体一起的呼吸而這樣會幫你不再脫離自已(住)在心智裏面 - 與你的身体, 與你自已回到這裏(here).
"解決辨法":
好的 - 我剛給你解釋過基本上你過往在你的心智系統裏面所面對的, 和我們怎樣在自已的心智裏製造出幻聽和幻覺. 所以 - 讓我們列出最重的幾點給你察覺:
1. 在我們心智系統裏的思想/想念, 幻聽/聲音, 能量和幻覺是與我們分開了的一部份.
3. 我們一直透過相信我們的心智比自已是更強大的 - 給心智系統, 即是這些思想, 聲音, 能量和幻覺輸送力量, 而令我們對自已改變自已變得無力.
現在讓我們看看自我宽恕的原理和怎樣用我示範的自我宽恕例子來栛助自已:
了解過什麼是自我宽恕後我們還會看看 "自我宽恕的原理".
自我宽恕是一個讓我們透過實踐(這些宽恕)來栛助和支援自已對自已的心智系統承擔責任的工具. 透過應用自我宽恕, 它會協助和支援自已去察覺你過往怎樣從你的思想, 聲音, 能量和幻覺裏分離了, 並且為察覺了後, 停止這些分離和取回你的自我-力量. 可以說, 就像所有這些思想/想念, 聲音, 能量和幻覺就像一塊塊的比薩餅而我們一直像一個比薩餅分散成所有零碎的比薩餅, 在我們裏面滿佈這些比薩餅. 自我宽恕協助和支援我們把所有這些(也是我們)的比薩餅, 把我們在自已裏面重新放回原位.
所以 - 自我宽恕同時是一個在心智系統的迷失空間裏 "尋找自已"的進程. 自我宽恕還協助和支援我們看到我們是有能力制止並在自已裏面改變自已的, 透過下定 "決心"要改變然後實踐. 自我宽恕還會協助和支援我們看到, 我們需要怎樣為自已亦是我們的心智系統負起責任, 在明白我們在自已裏面唯一可以改變自已的方法就只有透過 "我們親自實踐".
所以 - 讓我們看看自我宽恕是怎樣做的:
好的, 所以這些就是一些關於我們與自已也就是心智系統分離了的關係的自我宽恕例子, 而在這分離裏, 令我們的心智系統比我們自已更強大. 透過察覺到心智系統是我們自已的一部份 - 我們就有能力協助和支援自已停止並且改變自已改變心智.
"為什麼一定要用自我宽恕!!?"
"接受" 是說我們過往怎樣接受/默許在心智系統裏時的一切, 接受我們繼續奴役自已在心智裏, 接受在心智裏迷失成為所有這些破碎的比薩餅. 接受我們過往容許所有令我們不肯改變自已的一切事, 因為 - 因為你 "接受"自已變成所有這些碎片, 因為你這樣接受自已繼而奴役自已永遠都處於迷失中, 並且最終變成這些你接受的而且活這些你所接受 - 接受你永遠這樣迷失下去. 因此我們在自我宽恕句子裏加進 "我宽恕自已 接受!" 因為這樣會栛助和支援你停止再接受, 比如你永遠迷失下去, 並且栛助你改變這項接受成為一種察覺, 察覺出你有能力制止這些你所接受並且 "改變你自已"! 所以 - 當你不再接受自已變成 "在心智系裏迷失"時, 你跟着察覺你有能力制止這種迷失狀態並且再一次尋回自我!
而 "容許" 是我們過往怎樣容許自已一直在心智系統裏迷失下去, 一直甘於乏力. 容許, 這就像在說: "我什麼也不能做, 我改變不了自已, 我迷失/迷困了, 我乏力因此我永遠都是這樣的了". 所以 - 容許就像, 一直繼續以這些破碎/失落的比薩餅存在下去, 並且什麼也不嘗試/做去改變現況, 而繼續現在的模樣和迷失下去. 容許我們把自已的力量下放給心智系統, 透過 "容許"它並且"不去改變"它. 因此我們在自我宽恕句子裏加進 "我宽恕自已接受和容許!.." 因為這樣給我們一個機會, 停止這些 "容許" 這些每個人現時的奴役狀態並且察覺我們有能力取回 "自已的力量!" 和 "改變!"
所以 - 這些在自我宽恕裏的字句是用來栛助和支援自已停止接受的也就是奴役, 容許也就是下放自已的力量給心智系統和有這些零零碎碎自我, 把自已也就是這些比薩餅重新回歸的關鍵.
另一個在你進程中協助你的工具是: 呼吸法. 集中注意力與你的身体一起呼吸, 當心智系統暴走和這些想念, 聲音和幻覺壓倒你的時候, 吸入和呼出會幫助你, "把自已帶回現實中" 即是在物質身体裏. 你與物質身体一起呼吸會幫助你把心智系統靜下來, 讓你在自已裏面變得更穏. 所以 - 當你為自已走這個走出心智現實回到自已的進程, 幫助自已 "與身体一起呼吸!", 集中注意力在呼吸裏時. 你會發覺當你越不斷練習時, 這就會變得越來越容易停止參與在心智系統, 這些思想, 聲音和能量中.(Fred: 這我可以做證. 我已連續不停用呼吸法有三年半了, 現在已差不多不用數四下也無時無刻在輕鬆自動的做停氣呼吸.) 所以當你同時做你的自我宽恕, 和過你的日常生活 - 做日常事務時, 你可以同時專注在你的呼吸裏, 或當心智變得太劇烈或太忙碌時, 那時你只需要獨個兒坐下來一會, 深而且慢的吸呼, 吸入然後呼出直至你感到你的心智在慢慢靜來, 而且越來越靜. 而你就這樣栛助自已不再令心智系統過度活躍和壓倒你.
好的 - 我在這裏給你解釋過基本的技巧, 你過往經歴的是什麼一回事, 什麼是自我宽恕, 要怎樣運用, 為什麼會有效還有你能夠怎樣用呼吸法幫助自已. 現在是看 "你!"了. 如果你下定決心取回自已的力量和幫助自已,我們可以為你提供協助和支援, 好讓你能夠協助和支援自已. (翻譯: Fred cheung)
原文:
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What you have experienced throughout your life is how the mind of all human beings work. You have experienced your mind more extensively than most human beings, however there are many humans out there that have/have had the exact same or similar experiences.
I will within this document explain to you what happened in your mind, how it happened and why it happened. Also the solutions to assist and support yourself with.
Let’s begin with having a look at some main points:
Quote: “At the beginning I was having disrespecting thoughts against a master, I began to blame and spite him. Then I began to felt like there was a rush of energy in my chest - an energy that I cannot control. Felt like I was a printer and the main computer is somewhere else, whoever at the back input my commands and they will projected into my thoughts automatically. I couldn't control myself.”
The disrespecting, blaming and spiting thoughts towards the ‘master’ comes from your own mind and is referred to as ‘backchat’ or ‘back talk’. This ‘backchat’ comes up automatically in the mind and comes from our own personalities. So, if one have backchat of disrespect, blame and spite towards another, it reveals actually something about ourselves we haven’t looked at. With having disrespect, blame and spite towards the ‘master’ show that you have disrespect, blame and spite towards yourself, but you have projected it onto the master. Our world and the people in it is in fact mirrors of ourselves. This means that, whatever you experience towards another, actually show what you are experiencing within yourself, towards yourself –it reveals your relationship with yourself. This is what all humans miss: that – whatever we think/feel inside ourselves actually come FROM OURSELVES. Whatever we think/feel about someone/something else – is actually what we think/feel ABOUT OURSELVES.
(I will later in this document show you how to – from what you think/feel about another, see how it is in fact showing what you think/feel about yourself.)
The thoughts we think, the talking as the backchat (backchat which is thoughts arranged in such a way that it creates an actual conversation in our own mind, so – all talking that happens in our own mind, we have created ourselves from our own thoughts) – so, the thoughts/backchat generate energy in our bodies, which you experienced in your chest. So – the energy you experienced came from the thoughts/conversations of thoughts you were having in your mind.
At the moment, the mind with the thoughts and energies is ‘automated’, because we have created the mind, the thoughts and the energies in separation from us. So, the mind, the thoughts and energies are actually parts of ourselves we’ve separated ourselves from and created a ‘consciousness’ for itself, that is at the moment ‘taken over’ our ability to direct ourselves, to live. That’s why it felt like you were ‘losing control’, because at the moment our minds, our own thoughts, our own energies have taken control, because we haven’t taken responsibility for them or even realised that they are actually ourselves. Because of this separation, we have ‘forgotten’ how we have programmed our own mind, our thoughts and our energies and so created the belief that the mind, the thoughts and the energies is something that we can’t control; but we actually can stop and direct it ourselves; you just need to know how (which is what I will show you as we continue).
Quote: “I thought my master was almighty, he should be able to help me resolve this, but he didn't/couldn't. I told him my problems and he just bow his head(in his meditation) and said nothing. I met him several times. He asked me what's the matter? I said I was very anxious. He mimic Wai Lin(慧能) the Chinese Grand Five Meditation (Buddhism) master's words: anxious? You show me your "heart/thoughts/mind", let me help you find peace. Master Wai Lin
This is a point where all humans ‘become lost’ in where we try and find help ‘out there’ from others, when the solution is and always has been ourselves, within ourselves. The point that humans miss is that: we have created our own mind, our own thoughts and our energies and because of this: no-one else can really help us, but ourselves, because no-one else knows how our own mind works, because there’s no-one else inside you but YOU! No human being, not a normal human or even a master can help you with your own mind, because they are not in your mind – only you are. So – only you can help yourself, through understanding how you as the mind works and stand up inside yourself to direct your mind/thoughts/energies to not take control of you anymore. Everyone is always looking for solutions/help/answers outside of themselves, never finding help/solutions – because the REAL help/solutions is not ‘out there’, but inside self as self. So – I will later introduce you to self forgiveness and writing, which is tools which will help you to direct yourself in your mind, thoughts and energies to not have them control you anymore, but where you stand-up and make a decision to change. No-one else can stop our mind, thoughts and energies for us – only we can do it for ourselves, because the mind, thoughts and energies is ourselves, is our own creation that we have to take responsibility for.
Quote: “I began to suspect was this negative energy originate/related to him. Because he has super power(e.g. Channeling/supernatural/could know other people's past/secrets inside their mind), he knew I disrespect him, he knew I discontented with him, so he hated me. As long as he use a thought then I would feel sick.”
Here is another example of how, what goes on in our own mind – we project onto others, but it’s in fact ourselves experiencing ourselves and not another human being. The mind is interesting system, it can talk yourself into believing that, for example the ‘negative energies’ is coming from another person; but we are really creating it inside ourselves through our own thoughts/back talk/conversations in our head. So – the negative energies are not really coming from another human being, but is in fact coming from inside ourselves, through the thoughts we are thinking/conversations in our head we are having.
So, here – the ‘negative energy’ you were having towards the master, was really your own negative energy that you experienced inside yourself, that you created yourself through the thoughts/conversations you had in your mind. The mind can create positive and negative energies inside ourselves, which is create based on the nature of the thoughts we are having. So – if you accept and allow negative thoughts inside you, you will create negative energy, if you accept and allow positive thoughts inside you – you create positive energy. Both positive and negative thoughts and energies come from our mind and separate us from our human physical bodies to not be here in actual reality. So, the mind – with following our thoughts and energies; separate us from being here with our bodies, and is thus very easy to lose ourselves in our mind, because it’s a very confusing place – as you have experienced for yourself. So – with self forgiveness and writing, which I will explain later how it works; you will be able to help yourself with getting out of the lostness in the mind, and become stable in your physical body and bring yourself back to reality. And so stop the confusion and lostness and be stable here. This will be a process to walk; but as you have already experienced for yourself – no-one else can help you; there is no ‘quick fix’; you have to and can only help yourself; and there are many that will assist and support you in showing you how to use the tools of writing and self forgiveness. But the actual walking and application of the tools, the actual DOING of it – only you can do for you.
Understand, that – the thoughts you had of the master being ‘supernatural’ was a belief that you created in your own mind. If human beings were really supernatural – this world would’ve already been a completely different place! Therefore, your relationship with your master was only a ‘belief’ that you created in your mind, with your own thinking and conversations you had in your mind, because you believed that he was ‘more powerful’ than you. But – no human being is ‘more powerful’ than another. All human beings have a mind with thoughts and energies. The only thing that makes others more powerful is our own ideas/beliefs we create about them in our own minds. So – with you believing that master was ‘more powerful’ in your own mind, you made yourself believe that ‘he must / can help you’; instead of realising that you have the power of yourself to be able to help yourself. See how beliefs separate us from ourselves and each other? How we make others ‘more powerful’ instead of realising we have the power as ourselves to help ourselves. So – this is what you must realise here: that – no master/guru – no matter how ‘powerful’ you believe they are, they cannot help you; because they are not in you/your mind: only you are and so only you can help yourself.
Therefore, here – it’s to let go of the belief that a master is ‘more powerful’ and assist and support yourself to take your own power that is yourself, and help yourself to direct the mind so that it doesn’t control you anymore: only you can do this for yourself – no-one else can (as you have experienced for yourself!).
Also, the disrespect, discontent and hate that you believed he was experiencing towards you – is actually revealing that you were experiencing that towards yourself. Remember, whatever we think inside ourselves – always come from ourselves.
The mind project ourselves onto others so that we don’t realise that it’s all actually coming from ourselves, but that we always then blame others for what we experience and so never realize that it’s in fact ourselves we are experiencing. And so many human beings get lost in their mind, because everything that’s coming from us is blames onto others, never realising we’re always experiencing ourselves and because we’re not realising this – we haven’t taken responsibility for our own minds, our own thoughts and our own energies; not realising that we ourselves are the problem.
So – this example here, where you believed the master was having disrespect, discontent and hate – is an example of how our mind project ourselves onto another. So, for example – the disrespect, discontent and hate, was actually coming from inside you, from you and so actually show what you experience towards yourself, inside yourself. That you were really feeling disrespect towards yourself, that you were really feeling discontent towards yourself and that you were really feeling hate towards yourself that you have projected onto your master to not see that it is actually you that you are feeling. And so, we lose ourselves in our minds, thinking we are feeling others, but all the while – we’re only feeling ourselves.
Quote: “Then I began to have illusions/voices in my mind -- my seniors scolding me. At first I didn't pay attention to these thoughts, but later I became impatience. I couldn't suppress myself and started spite, blame, argue. So I was talking to myself, I scolded myself, I talk to myself. I was getting more and more afraid day by day.”
How the mind works is as follows: the more and more we participate in our thoughts and energies, the more and more it becomes more intense to the point where thoughts and energies can transform into illusions and more voices.
What humans don’t realise is that – all the illusions, the voices in our heads, we’re actually creating ourselves through participating in our thoughts and energies. The more we participate in our thoughts and energies, the more we are ‘feeding our minds’ and so giving our power/responsibility away to the mind and then the mind starts becoming more and more powerful than us. So – that very relationship we have with our mind as the thoughts and energies where the mind becomes more powerful than us: we create through us not stopping our thoughts and energies and making a decision to live here in the breath with our bodies. So, the more and more we participate in the thoughts and energies, the more powerful the mind becomes and the more powerless we become. So – when illusions and more voices come up in the mind one must know: I have been feeding my mind more power, instead of me stopping my thoughts and energies. Therefore realise that, even illusions are self-created from thoughts and conversations and reactions we’ve had with ourselves in our own minds.
So – it’s time to take your self-power back and no more accept or allow yourself to give your self-power away to the mind. I’m going to assist and support you in showing you how to take your self-power back by walking writing and self forgiveness and how to stop participation in the thoughts and energies to no more feed the mind power, but take responsibility for you and assist and support you to live with your physical body and no more in the mind.
Quote: “I called my master, and every time he just answer me impatiencely. I was very frighten and couldn't explain to him what was going on with me. All I could do was crying. Then he angrily said: You didn't tell me what's the matter and what is such a big deal for keep crying! Then he hanged up. I thought he was almighty, he could know psychic-ly what was going on inside me. He seemed just treat me like a insane.”
So here you have realised for yourself that even ‘masters’ do not really in fact know the truth of what goes on in another’s mind: only you do. And, what you must also realise is that – no other being can help you, unless you help yourself. For example, I am giving you perspective of what happened with you and will show you how to help yourself with walking writing and self forgiveness, but you must take the first steps to stop the thoughts, voices and energies inside yourself with applying the tools of writing and self forgiveness – you will realise you can do it, and only you can do it. So – your ‘master’ could not help you, because your thoughts, voices and energies in your mind is what you created, and because you are the creator of your own mind – only you can change yourself inside yourself. Writing and self forgiveness will show you how to do this – to help yourself with your own mind as thoughts, voices and energies.
Quote: “I couldn't resolve it through my master, then I began to look for help in worshiping bodhisattva. To help calm down my thoughts. Because my thoughts were restless, and they are all negative. I was in deep pain but I couldn't find bodhisattva. My situation kept on deteriorate. More and more illusion, voices, blaming spiting Bodhisattva. Why didn't he response to my pleading for help? I spite bodhisattva but then I was in extreme fear and worry afterwards.”
Have a look here: You created the same relationship towards Bodhisattva as you did towards your previous master – looking for help outside of yourself, instead of realising that only you live inside yourself inside your own mind. And because only you are there inside yourself – only you can help yourself. But, because humans do not realise that ALL the thoughts, voices and energies inside us we create ourselves, and we’re responsible for – we tend to look for help outside of ourselves in wanting others to take away our problems; but in reality it cannot and does not work that way.
And have a look – over time, the thoughts, voices and energies just became more and more and more and this will happen and continue happening unless you stand up inside yourself and stop participation in them and change YOU!
And, if you have a look further, you had the same thoughts, voices and energies of spite, blame towards Bodhisattva as you did towards your previous master, because again you made yourself powerless, inferior and making your master and Bodhisattva more than you inside your mind, instead of realising your own ability to assist and support yourself inside yourself. So, the same experience re-played in your mind with your relationship towards Bodhisattva, where your mind projected your own experiences of spite and blame from yourself onto Bodhisattva.
See – our outside world reflect what is in fact happening inside ourselves. This means that, for example – experiencing spite and blame towards Bodhisattva, was showing that you were in fact experiencing spite and blame towards yourself. And this goes for all people in our world – whatever we experience in our thoughts and energies towards others, in fact reveal what we are experiencing towards ourselves; but our mind project it onto others so we don’t ever realise that we’re never experiencing anyone else but OURSELVES!!! I will show you in the self forgiveness examples I will do for you how to assist and support yourself with ‘seeing yourself in others’, meaning how to investigate, for yourself, the thoughts and energies you have towards others, is in fact showing you that it’s the thoughts and energies you have towards yourself. So, your relationship with your master and Bodhisattva outside of yourself, was showing the relationship you were having with you inside yourself – our outside relationships reflect our inside relationship with ourselves.
Quote: “I fear I'd go to hell because of my daring to spite bodhisattva. Then I have illusions of demons from hell come and want to throne me as a devil. I didn't want to because that would imply I have to kill people. I didn't want to but I felt I was getting more and more difficult to control myself. I feared that one day I would (listen to my thoughts/voices) and actually go harm people out there. So when I still have consciousness, I jumped from my home's 5th floor balcony wanted to end my life. But I didn't die……
Here again the illusions became more, the more and more and more you continued to feed your mind with continuing participating in the thoughts and energies, making the mind more powerful – giving the mind your power, instead of realising that the thoughts and energies of the mind is not in fact more powerful than you. You have made your thoughts and energies more powerful because you have separated yourself from your own thoughts and energies, not realising that your thoughts and energies as the mind is parts of you you haven’t realised is in fact you. And because you haven’t realised that the thoughts and energies are you, you have let the thoughts and energies have power and control over you. And if the mind is left undirected – it can take a life of its own and control us to the extent where it completely takes over everything inside ourselves and we completely lose control of ourselves and our physical bodies – as you have experienced where your thoughts and energies as the mind talked you into ending your own life. See – the mind, the thoughts and the energies are so separate from real reality that it cannot value life, because it is not life. The mind is made from energy – so is the thoughts and the voices.
And if we continue living in the mind, we more and more and more separate ourselves from the real physical reality into an illusionary energy reality and then later on believe that the mind reality is real and completely forget about OURSELVES and this REAL PHYSICAL REALITY. Dying or ending your life is NOT THE SOLUTION. Only YOU are the solution to yourself inside yourself. The self forgiveness and writing I will show you is the tools you use to help you get out of your mind illusion reality of energy back into the actual physical reality so that you can start appreciating you, appreciating living and appreciating being here with yourself and make / become something more of yourself in this world than you ever could have in the mind.
At Desteni – this is what we are walking. Each being walking the process of writing and self forgiveness is assisting and supporting themselves in realising that the mind with all the thoughts, backchats and energies is parts of self we have separated ourselves from. And the only way we are going to clean up the mess inside ourselves in taking responsibility for the separation of ourselves as the mind and ‘find ourselves’ again inside ourselves. Also – the process of self forgiveness and writing assist and support self with stopping participation in the energy of the mind, and so stop creating illusions in the mind to come back here into one’s own physical body and live here in the ‘real world’ that we have separated ourselves from. With writing and self forgiveness one also assist and support oneself with BREATHING. To become aware of your breathing with your body as this will help you to not separate yourself in the mind, in the illusions and energy – but be here in the physical with your body, with yourself.
SOLUTION:
3. We have been giving our mind as the thoughts, voices, energies and illusions our power through believing that our mind is more powerful than us, and in that making ourself powerless towards ourselves to change ourselves.
4. To realise that we have the ability to change ourselves inside ourselves through taking back our self power and stopping participation in the mind as the thoughts, voices, illusions and energies.
5. With the tools of writing, self forgiveness and breathing one can assist and support oneself to stop living in the illusions of the mind, and come back to self in one’s own physical body into the real reality that is this physical world we have separated ourselves from as we have lost ourselves in the mind.
Now we will have a look at how self forgiveness works and how to assist and support yourself with self forgiveness with examples I will show you:
First let’s have a look at: WHAT IS SELF FORGIVENESS?
Self-Forgiveness is a tool that one live to assist and support self to take responsibility for one’s mind. With applying self forgiveness, this will assist and support self to realise how you have separated yourselves from your thoughts, voices, energies and illusions and to within that realisation, stop the separation and take back your self-power. One can say, for example that all the thoughts, voices, energies and illusions are like puzzle pieces and we’ve been living like a puzzle in pieces with all the pieces lying all of the place inside ourselves. Self forgiveness assist and support self to take all those pieces of our puzzle as ourselves and put ourselves back together again inside ourselves.
Realise, that – this is going to be a process. There is no ‘magical quick-fix cure’ for what we face as our mind. This is a ‘different way of life’ that you have to adopt, where every day it’s a process of walking writing, self forgiveness and breathing to put all the pieces of the puzzle inside yourself back together again. As you have realise for yourself throughout your life thus far, looking for help outside yourself and instantly wanting to fix yourself: this is not how it works. This process of helping yourself is going to take patience and discipline and realising that you are doing this for you. And, putting a puzzle back together again times time, focus, attention – sometimes you make mistakes, but then try again and stand up. This process you will be walking will be the same.
So – let us have a look at how self forgiveness is done:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my mind, not realising that my mind is me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my thoughts, and in that separation didn’t realise that my thoughts are me and that I have the ability to stop and change myself as my thoughts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the voices in my head is coming from somewhere else, not realising that the voices is what I created over a long period of time of participating in thinking and energies and so the voices is not separate from me, I created the voices. And if I created the voices – I can stop them.
Okay, so here are some self forgiveness examples in looking at the relationship we’ve created with ourselves as the mind in separation and in that separation, made the mind more than ourselves. In realising that the mind is parts of ourselves, as pieces of ourselves – we have the ability to assist and support ourselves to stop and change ourselves as the mind.
WHY IS SELF FORGIVENESS NECESSARY?
Speaking self forgiveness is like – ‘saying sorry to yourself’, but in more deep and intimate way. Saying sorry to yourself for separating yourself from yourself, from not realising that you can actually help yourself, from making your life difficult for yourself, from being hard on yourself, from not helping yourself. And in this self forgiveness as ‘saying sorry to yourself’ you then release yourself / set yourself free from your past so that you can help yourself to create a new future for yourself inside yourself. Through self forgiveness, you let go of the burdens of the past in your mind that is haunting you, and set yourself free to take your power back to change yourself, for yourself.
The words “accept and allow” in the self forgiveness statement – let’s have a look at that:
“Acceptance” is how we have accepted our condition in the mind, acceptance is how we continued to enslave ourselves in the mind as being lost as all the pieces of the puzzle. Acceptance is the experience we have allowed that has stopped us from changing ourselves, because – because you ‘accept’ yourself as all the lost pieces, this acceptance then enslaves you to always being lost and eventually you become that acceptance and live that acceptance that you will always remain lost. Therefore we add in the self forgiveness statement “I forgive myself that I have ACCEPTED…” as this assist and support you to stop that acceptance of yourself of always being lost, for example and help you to change that acceptance to a realisation that you can stop the acceptance and CHANGE YOURSELF! So – when you stop accepting yourself as being ‘lost in the mind’ you then realise that you can stop the lostness and find yourself again!
Now “Allowance” is how we have allowed ourselves to continue existing as being lost in the mind, as being powerless. With allowance, it is like saying: “I can’t do anything to change myself, I am lost and powerless and therefore it will always be like this”. So – allowance is like, continuing to exist as the lost puzzle pieces and not doing anything to change it but continue living and being lost. Allowance is how we give our self-power away to the mind, by ALLOWING it and NOT CHANGING it. Therefore we add in the self forgiveness statement: “I forgive myself that I have accepted and ALLOWED…” as this gives one the opportunity to stop the ALLOWANCE as enslavement to one’s current condition and realise that one can take back one’s SELF-POWER and CHANGE.
So – the words in the statement of the self forgiveness is the keys to assisting and supporting self to stop the acceptance as enslavement and allowance as giving away our self-power to the mind and the pieces of ourselves to bring ourselves as the puzzle pieces back together again.
Another tool to help yourself in this process with is: BREATHING. To focus on your breathing with your body, the in-breath and the out-breath will help you in moments when the mind gets too much and the thoughts, voices and illusions become too overwhelming, to ‘bring yourself back to the real reality’ as the physical body. Your breathing with the physical body will help you quiet the mind so that you can become more stable with yourself inside yourself. So – as you are walking this process for yourself as walking out of the mind reality and coming back to yourself help yourself to BREATHE WITH YOUR BODY, to focus on your breathing. You will find the more you practise this, the more easier it will become to stop participation in the mind, the thoughts, the voices and the energies. So, as you are walking your self forgiveness, and walking throughout your day – doing your daily tasks, you can start focusing on your breathing, or when the mind gets too much or too busy, then all you do is sit down with yourself for a moment, and take deep slow breaths, in-breath and out-breath until you feel that the mind is quieting more and more and more and so you help yourself to stop making the mind so busy and overwhelming.
Alright – here I have now explained to you the basics, what’s happened to you, what self forgiveness is, how it done, why it is done and also how you can help yourself with Breathing. Now it is up to YOU. If you make the decision to take back your self-power and help yourself, we can assist and support you for you to be able to assist and support yourself.
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